Losing my mind
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SWTPEA61 wrote........
'One night I woke frightened the devil came in my
dream or nightmare....he was hideous unlike any
horror film that I have seen he had a bottle of wine
in his hand and was laughing at me. I woke up and
thought did that really happen.
He tries to take a hold of our soul we can't let
him we need to be strong.'
After all these yrs sober I have never
heard anyone else having this dream
so similar like I had when was in my
drinking career until now.
When I read what swtpea wrote, I had
chills remembering like as if it happened
yesterday.
When I saw the devil, it scared me so, but
not enough to get sober till yrs later.
I'm so glad it was just a dream but
scary enough to keep the devil away
for good thru our Faith and Beliefs in
a HP - Higher Power or God of our
understanding.
Stay strong and sober.
'One night I woke frightened the devil came in my
dream or nightmare....he was hideous unlike any
horror film that I have seen he had a bottle of wine
in his hand and was laughing at me. I woke up and
thought did that really happen.
He tries to take a hold of our soul we can't let
him we need to be strong.'
After all these yrs sober I have never
heard anyone else having this dream
so similar like I had when was in my
drinking career until now.
When I read what swtpea wrote, I had
chills remembering like as if it happened
yesterday.
When I saw the devil, it scared me so, but
not enough to get sober till yrs later.
I'm so glad it was just a dream but
scary enough to keep the devil away
for good thru our Faith and Beliefs in
a HP - Higher Power or God of our
understanding.
Stay strong and sober.
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Join Date: Jan 2013
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Originally Posted by SoberSparrow 
I honestly think about drinking all day...
...
Once you experience the freedom alcohol gives you...
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Once you experience the freedom alcohol gives you...
I'll never forget the night of day 84 of my sobriety, though. I was climbing into bed and it just then occurred to me - I haven't thought about drinking all day today.
REAL freedom settled over me like a down comforter and I slept the sleep of the truly emancipated for the first time in decades.
I didn't know I was a slave until I was free.
Trust me, you want this.
Trust me, you can have this.
Best of Luck on Your Journey.
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Welcome to the Forum Sobersparrow!! 
I think if alcohol gave such freedom and was soo fun and exciting without any consequence, there would be no need for SR, but sadly that's not the case.
The reality I had to accept was I couldn't have alcohol without the consequences, it was one or the other and the consequences were becoming too serious not to do something about my drinking, no matter how boring life got.
But that was yet another lie alcohol was selling me, there's a whole life out there waiting for us all, we just have to take a leap of faith and build it!!
I think if alcohol gave such freedom and was soo fun and exciting without any consequence, there would be no need for SR, but sadly that's not the case.
The reality I had to accept was I couldn't have alcohol without the consequences, it was one or the other and the consequences were becoming too serious not to do something about my drinking, no matter how boring life got.
But that was yet another lie alcohol was selling me, there's a whole life out there waiting for us all, we just have to take a leap of faith and build it!!
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Originally Posted by LadyBlue0527
If you told me this before I quit I would have laughed. I wouldn't have believed it. It's true, I promise you. What you think is making life fun and keeping you happy is actually what's keeping you from those things.
Drinking is keeping you from living life, not supplying you with what you need to live.
Drinking is keeping you from living life, not supplying you with what you need to live.
This was true with my life. That is why I am sober.
But my wife is a different story. She still drinks every night and drinks a lot. But she works 2 jobs (60-70 hours a week), is active in the community, is very social and has a very fulfilling life.
But even at age 53 she can drink 15 beers on a work night and get up early and go to work.
Her thing is that the booze at the end of her day is her reward for working hard and doing all that she does.
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Hi sparrow. I hope you're feeling a little better today. Change is scary. The thought of not drinking can be scary. But alcohol does not give you freedom. It is enslaving you. It is causing you self loathing, fear and depression. I hope you can find the support you need here on SR. Keep posting .
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Originally Posted by Doug39
This was true with my life. That is why I am sober.
But my wife is a different story. She still drinks every night and drinks a lot. But she works 2 jobs (60-70 hours a week), is active in the community, is very social and has a very fulfilling life.
But even at age 53 she can drink 15 beers on a work night and get up early and go to work.
Her thing is that the booze at the end of her day is her reward for working hard and doing all that she does.
But my wife is a different story. She still drinks every night and drinks a lot. But she works 2 jobs (60-70 hours a week), is active in the community, is very social and has a very fulfilling life.
But even at age 53 she can drink 15 beers on a work night and get up early and go to work.
Her thing is that the booze at the end of her day is her reward for working hard and doing all that she does.
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me too
Originally Posted by SoberSparrow
I feel like I'm losing mind. I binge drink and binge eat every day. I honestly think about drinking all day. I've tried sobriety before. Ive done so many day "ones" I'm over it. I just can't get my **** together. Ive lost so much confidence. Withdrawn and no energy. But I don't want to be sober. It's so boring. Boring. Healthy people are boring as bat ****. I work too hard to be boring and no fun 😣 ahhh but I don't want to do this anymore.... how do you fill the time sober. It's depressing. Once you experience the freedom alcohol gives you.. its almost impossible to go back. I have to go and sober up.. again
It's ******* monday night for God sake. Loser loser
Your such a loser cont even say no to control yourself. Cant pit the kids first. Disappointing and disgraceful
It's ******* monday night for God sake. Loser loser
Your such a loser cont even say no to control yourself. Cant pit the kids first. Disappointing and disgraceful
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