MidnightRider

I just wanted to check in...

I would have had 8 weeks last Sunday.. But bought a fifth of Vodka on Saturday. Bottle lasted 24 hours. Hung over Monday.... bought more to relieve that. Turned into 4 days of crap.

I felt like S*** and acted sloppy and was in a fowl mood all week. Although didn't do "anything bad". I did let myself and family down.

TODAY THURSDAY 9/22/16 - Back to DAY 1!!!!!

August252015

Why do you think you drank? What are you going to do differently this time? I forget what your program is but now is a perfect time to revamp or kick it up a notch. If it's AA, a meeting every day this week would be a great start.

Good luck. Stay sober- today. Then repeat...

MidnightRider

Got lazy... bored. Let my guard down.

Mountainmanbob

Good to have you back with us on the sober bus.

M-Bob

MrPL

Sorry to hear that, mate. Why did you get the bottle in the first place? There must have been something that drove you to it, I think understanding it is important.

Days will build up again quickly, you can do this.

P

VirginiaWoof

If you have an idea what sparked your drinking that's a help. It gives you something to work on x

Ooona

Stay close to us buddy! Come back to the August group and hang out or join the September class if that would be more helpful. Accountability is good for us, as is being with others who understand us. Tell on your illness if it starts to talk and lie to you, tell us before you drink and we can talk you through it!

Have missed you, Im so happy you made it back!

MidnightRider

Thanks!

I bought the bottle because I was home alone. Family went away for the weekend. I was bored and thought... it would "feel" good to catch a buzz.

Of course the first drink went down well....
15 minutes of enjoyment.
4 days of s**t.

At least I recovered quick.... I hope that makes sense.
I feel strong today!

Thank you all that responded.. I did need a little help today!

dwtbd

Something that helped me was realizing that I loved to get drunk, the buzz felt great because that meant I was on my way , that never changed from day one of drinking. The 'good' feeling or the expectation of feeling it hasn't changed , and I doubt it ever would, but really that was a problemfor me drinking and continuing to start again ( or just keep going).
That good feeling or expectation of it has literally nothing to do with me quitting, how could it really ? I loved getting drunk, but couldn't, no longer wanted to live with the addiction, I guess what I mean to say is that even 'knowing' the buzz would feel good, is no reason to drink and every reason not to.

Delilah1

Glad you are back Midnight Rider! Complacency has been my downfall in the past. I am 8 days away from nine months and I have been vigilant with checking in and reading on here daily. I also do lots of reading both recovery and non-recovery related, and have been focused on making healthy and positive choices.

Keep this feeling in mind when the thoughts of drinking pop in again, and then play the tape through.

You can do this!

tekink

the only time I made it 8 weeks I slipped for a month and a half before I was able to put it down again. It's the longest I've gone so far but I'm going to beat it this time!

congrats on putting the foot down and not just caving because you caved!

MidnightRider

Thanks all..

I am grateful for this site and all the people.

I actually was REALLY enjoying my sobriety too! The proud feeling of accomplishing something like stopping drinking was a huge UPLIFT for me.

I wont let this discourage me in any way...............I assume it is part of the process. (that is the testing the waters .. so to speak with a drink or bottle). Then realizing it ain't gonna work.

As the song goes,...

"Noooooo, I'm Not gonna let 'em catch me nooooo... Not gonna let 'em catch the Midnight Riiiiiiiiderrrrrrrr"

dwtbd

It seemed I was always in the 'process' , going through one stage or another, until I found SR and learned about RR/AVRT( some really great threads on these ideas here on SR in the Secular Connections forum) and became an 'event' guy.
I Quit, full stop, decided I was Never going to drink again, and not change my mind. Three plus years later , still not changing my mind , because it was the best decision I ever made and literally could not be happier about making it.
An event I highly recommend, no matter what spot in the 'process' one finds one's self

thomas11

Boredom is the enemy of an alcoholic. Maybe try to find something to occupy your idle time? Glad you got back to SR.

january161992

9/22/16 is an awesome sobriety date !

lets keep it by taking action

tonight is my big thursday social meeting ~120 people

lotsa girls lotsa old timers lotsa everyone

not everyone is sober

im in service there

God bless

MrPL

Boredom can indeed bring some tricky temptations, but you have a strong weapon which I can assure gets rid of boredom: music.

Grab the guitar, challenge yourself, it has been my rock (and I am rocking a lot better as a result!)

Glad you feel back on track!

P

MidnightRider

Thanks.. I actually played my guitar and recorded 3 songs Sat night.

I guess I "used" the alcohol to change my mood. I probably should have went to a movie or something.

But again.... Lesson learned. Next time I wont be hitting the bottle.

Dee74

Maybe your plan needs a little tweakin' MR?

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ery-plans.html
D

ChaseReaper230

I'm in the same boat as you MidnightRider. Fellow musician. Alcohol got in the way of my playing and creativity. Boredom is a big trigger for me. I'm trying to really get back into writing and playing like I used to.

Perhaps we could write music over the internet. I need more like-minded sober people in my life. Just a thought.

Chase

Findec

Damn. No lie that does suck, but you have been given another chance. I know you got this Midnight! Don't beat yourself up to much. Just take it in stride. At least you acknowledged it. Acknowledge it and forget it, and move forward. Like Dee stated maybe tweak your plan? I was never a fan of that if its not broke don't fix it. I believe anything can be improved. Best of luck to ya, bro