Optimini

Sometimes life does suck, that is the truth. Being drunk never solves any problem, it either makes the problem worse or delays it. If you have problems to address, you need a clear head - take a step in the right direction for yourself, no one else. Make a commitment to stop and get help.

wehav2day

In my experience, drinking didn't necessarily make me tell the truth. It made me tell a bit of truth mixed in with a lot of melodramatic ********. It brings out the worst in us, not necessarily the REAL, TRUE us.

The only thing that brings out the REAL me is recovery. Recovery gave me the ability to stop putting mind and mood altering chemicals in my body. Once I stopped using chemicals to alter my thoughts and mood, THATS when the real me came out. At first, it was all raw and rough and ridiculously real. Recovery helped me navigate through that, or just let it ride through me if necessary.

Then the crazy period cycles through, and I was left with me. Just me. And recovery helped me learn to like the real me.

That process is tough, I'm not gonna lie. But it's absolutely priceless, magical, completely transformative.

Give yourself he precious gift of recovery. Take advantage of this horrible feeling by turning it around and going to rehab. I've never, ever heard someone say the really wish they hadn't gone to rehab. You can do this. You deserve a new you.

Eliasson

Thank you all so much for your kindness and encouragement. I just made an appt to go meet with a counselor at a rehab center tomorrow morning. I am scared to death, but I just can't live this way anymore. You are all such an inspiration to me. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for helping me to have hope.

tomsteve

good on ya!!!
keep that courage and hope!

Zanna

I can go to sleep happy now

Well done! Xxx

wehav2day

That's the best news I've had all day!! Please stick to that appointment. Don't talk yourself out of it. You can and will do this. Yay!!

MLD51

Oh that is good news. I was scared to go talk to the counselor too but I made myself do it and I think it was the best thing I ever did for myself.

Opivotal

I'm so very proud of you, Eliasson!

Please keep posting and let us know how you're doing.

We're here to support you.

Dee74

I'm sorry I missed the thread til now but I think rehab is a great idea, Eliasson.

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JD

That's great Eliasson. And don't be scared. I think you'll end up having a great experience. Soak up as much as you can.

Dharma33

That is wonderful! Please keep us posted!

HeartsAfire

I'm sending you love, courage and most of all, hope.

Hevyn

Add me to the list of friends who are with you all the way, Eliasson. Life can be better than ever.

cwood3

Eliasson, that is so cool. Please, come back to this site/post and tell us how it goes. As you can see, a lot of people here really do care how it goes for you. My money is on you coming back on here with a new outlook and a great sense of relief. That first action will get you headed to where you really want to be.

We'll all be looking for you.

Optimini

I'm very happy for you, I was thinking of you and post today. You are very brave to take that first step.

Upward2Enlightenment

How did your meeting with the counselor go today Eliasson?

Eliasson

I am going to a different rehab on Friday to speak with a counselor there. I'm trying not to be picky but really did not get a great feeling today. Hoping this next one will be a little better.
But I am sober tonight. Had one tough hour where I just couldn't stop crying from fear and sadness and anger at not being able to numb those feelings. But I didn't drink. Thank you for checking on me

Upward2Enlightenment

That's good to hear that you didn't drink.
Checking out a different place is probably a good idea, you want a place that will be good for you.

Also remember that there are people here always willing to help too.

Best wishes.

Lightning Bug

Rehab was the best thing I ever did for myself.

Dharma33

Great job staying sober, and looking forward to your update