BD84

Something very bad happened. All is out in the open now. I am on day 4 and going to see a councler tomorrow.

Everyone suspected. My wife knew more than anyone. They all know the full extent now. They all know that even if I go a week or 2 without that the last few years have been hell and I put them through hell.

My wife, parents, and best friends all know. They are all supportive except my dad. If I quit that is not good for his good times.

On day 4. All is good except the neurological symptoms of withdrawl when going to sleep. Pray for me please. I made it 11 days in June and gave it all up. I am not a person that can drink.

No more hiding.

cwood3

I believe in prayer......you are on my list

Alkolik

Why your father doesnt support you?

U75

Fantastic work on day 4. It sounds like you have a lot of support. Draw on it, keep coming back to SR, and keep saying no to your AV.

Mountainmanbob

Once we realize that and make a firm decision to no longer drink
we start to rebuild our lives.

Sure helps the ones around us too.

Don't worry about you dad right now -- take care of first things first.

MB

Hevyn

Day 4 - that's something to be proud of, BD. I'm sorry for all the pain you've experienced, but here's where it can end. 'I am not a person that can drink' - simply stated, but so true. You can do it!

Anna

Be very proud of your decision and for getting to Day 4. We do understand how hard this is and we are here to help.

tomsteve

"If I quit that is not good for his good times."

Dee74

I'm glad you're back for a fresh start BD

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Elicia08

Glad you're here!!

BD84

Thanks Dee. That means a lot. I hope this admission and counceling helps.

ScottFromWI

Welcome back BD. Don't just hope that your your counseling works, make it work. And if it's not enough, add more. Meetings, more time here, rehab....whatever it takes. SR is always here to help too, any hour of the day.

BD84

Food stuff there Scott. Thanks.

I cant drink anymore. Its the same rocky road every time.

Rogue

Welcome BD! I'm also on day 4. I had almost 3 years under my belt and then I cracked. You can do this! I think you coming here is an amazing step! I believe in you and I will be praying for you.

brynn

(((BD))) Stick with us and we'll get through the tough stuff together

BD84

Good Stuff*

Pondlady

Sometimes it's a relief to have it in the open and stop hiding. Congratulations on day #4 and your decision to stop drinking.

REsoberALITY

Welcome back. Prayers of patience and strength for you tonight on your journey. You can do this! Keep posting!

Quincy

My thought are with you and I am in the same boat, but on day 3. I do agree with a previous post that today. I actually feel better because it is out in the open. It gives me relief and relief to the ones around me because at least I have admitted something everyone knew for a long time, but I foolishly thought I was still hiding. I think the hiding created a tremendous amount of stress for me and actually contributed to drinking more. As of today I am so thankful I don't have to hide it anymore.

If I can hold on to sobriety the days of sneaking drinks, acting and lying about whether or not I had been drinking, risking trouble with the law, mornings of remorse and feeling like crap, etc., etc. are OVER and that is a great thing to think about right now even though times are very tough right now.

It will feel so nice to be 100% honest and trusted again. Hopefully this helps and know you're not alone.

I also believe that being sober over the long term can heal most relationships or at least come to an understanding and move on to re-newed relationships or create new ones.

I will end with a quote that my father told me when I was a child that I am using in these difficult times where I have tarnished relationships with my drinking, "trust is something you can't ask for, it is something that is earned over time". I need to earn trust again.

Soberwolf

Keep up the good work