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Originally Posted by Invisiblegarden 
At a bar 
Do you want to change? If so,what can YOU do today to help that happen. Not your husband or your doctor or some guy in a bar. You. If you wanna talk about recovery to someone why not get back to some meetings? The bar is an unlikely place to find any strength and hope.
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Originally Posted by Invisiblegarden
I was sober 4 yr's and went 3 times a week to aa.
You sound so much like my kind of alcoholic. In my experience, the more hopeless you feel, the more hope there is. The really amazing recoveries seem to come from situations like yours.
Detox seems essential in the short term, and AA would be worth a try at any time. It looks like AA worked for quite a while then stopped working. Why was that?
I am curious. Did you live the steps? Did you sponsor people?
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Originally Posted by Invisiblegarden
At a bar
Not a good location for an alcoholic.
This is your life--sobriety is your choice.
I chose to take action and stop my drinking.
My husband still does, but his choices are his own
and he doesn't dictate mine either.
If you need detox, and you truly want to stop,
get off the bar stool and get in action.
You are worth it and you've already managed
to quit for four years before.
That is fantastic--you have the tools and discipline
just apply them again and harder than ever.
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Originally Posted by Invisiblegarden
Know one really understands how I feel I'm losing my whole life right before my eyes and I'm sitting back watching it slowly fade.
There's a better way, but you won't find it in a bar.
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Not what I wanted but I'm detoxing with librium at home I just pray I can do the right thing and not take too much I told him when I'm depressed I take pills wtf anyhow 10 days of this then going to aa meetings as much as possible.
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Glad you got back to the Doctors. Sorty its nit quite what yiu wanted, but at this point it'd be quite a distraction to spend time on wishful thinking. I have a little caution sign drawn in the front on my diary, with 'I want. .. But.... If only... ' to remind myself of dangerous thought patterns. Any sentences that start that way for me tend to be rationalisation or wishful thinking, and they get me nowhere fast.
Keep praying, and sticking to the prescribed doses at the prescribed times. Those AA meetings are there for you today, not just in 10 days time. Why not reach out and make some use of the support that is there. Esp as you're a bit worried about that librium being there. When we spot a potential slippery area, it's up to us to find a way of making it less slippery, or where possible, non-slip. That's all part of recovery. And you have just embarked on the first part of your journey, through sobriety and then recovery, to peace and serenity.
We're all rooting for you here.
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Here's a Step 1 prayer for you, just in case you haven't had the chance to look one out yet...
First Step Prayer
Dear Lord, Help me to see and admit that I am powerless over my alcoholism. Help me to understand how my alcoholism has led to unmanageability in my life. Help me this day to understand the true meaning of powerlessness. Remove from me all denial of my alcoholism.
(This prayer is developed from the chapter, More About Alcoholism)
Keep praying, and sticking to the prescribed doses at the prescribed times. Those AA meetings are there for you today, not just in 10 days time. Why not reach out and make some use of the support that is there. Esp as you're a bit worried about that librium being there. When we spot a potential slippery area, it's up to us to find a way of making it less slippery, or where possible, non-slip. That's all part of recovery. And you have just embarked on the first part of your journey, through sobriety and then recovery, to peace and serenity.
We're all rooting for you here.
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Here's a Step 1 prayer for you, just in case you haven't had the chance to look one out yet...
First Step Prayer
Dear Lord, Help me to see and admit that I am powerless over my alcoholism. Help me to understand how my alcoholism has led to unmanageability in my life. Help me this day to understand the true meaning of powerlessness. Remove from me all denial of my alcoholism.
(This prayer is developed from the chapter, More About Alcoholism)
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Going on day 4
Not drunk not drinking just took all my librium to feel what I need I'm out now just hoping for sleep I'm supposed to taper down but the effects are not strong enough. Not afraid of death not afraid of anything just peace finally. Need prayer I my higher power is god. Love all take care of oNE another. Bye thanks for some great friends.
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Originally Posted by Gottalife
Hi Invisiblegarden,
You sound so much like my kind of alcoholic. In my experience, the more hopeless you feel, the more hope there is. The really amazing recoveries seem to come from situations like yours.
Detox seems essential in the short term, and AA would be worth a try at any time. It looks like AA worked for quite a while then stopped working. Why was that?
I am curious. Did you live the steps? Did you sponsor people?
You sound so much like my kind of alcoholic. In my experience, the more hopeless you feel, the more hope there is. The really amazing recoveries seem to come from situations like yours.
Detox seems essential in the short term, and AA would be worth a try at any time. It looks like AA worked for quite a while then stopped working. Why was that?
I am curious. Did you live the steps? Did you sponsor people?
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