This is what happened here.
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This is what happened here.
Well trying to get clean did not resort in a permanent good thing for me. I took a month off a few weeks back, and it was the hardest thing ever, but I did not experience any medical issues associated with withdrawal. What DID happen was I dropped 25 pounds that fast, and my big bloated face subsided. I picked it up again and one would think my tolerance would have decreased. No way. It came back with a vengeance, again. I can drink even more now. I use to put back about ten on a week day and about 18 on a weekend day. I can now do 15-18 on a week day and get up and make it to work - still high ( I must stink of it). I'm up to a 24 of beer, per day, on weekends. I'm not asking for advice, I know what the solution is. Just wanted to rely to fellow alcoholics that this can happen so be very mindful of the potential exponentially consequences of picking up that drink again. I'm in big trouble.
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Sorry to hear that you found that out the hard way contance, but yes - our drinking will usually resume as bad or worse even after a period of abstinence.
Glad you came back, what are your plans moving forward?
Glad you came back, what are your plans moving forward?
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Originally Posted by Constance01 
Well trying to get clean did not resort in a permanent good thing for me. I took a month off a few weeks back, and it was the hardest thing ever, but I did not experience any medical issues associated with withdrawal. What DID happen was I dropped 25 pounds that fast, and my big bloated face subsided. I picked it up again and one would think my tolerance would have decreased. No way. It came back with a vengeance, again. I can drink even more now. I use to put back about ten on a week day and about 18 on a weekend day. I can now do 15-18 on a week day and get up and make it to work - still high ( I must stink of it). I'm up to a 24 of beer, per day, on weekends. I'm not asking for advice, I know what the solution is. Just wanted to rely to fellow alcoholics that this can happen so be very mindful of the potential exponentially consequences of picking up that drink again. I'm in big trouble.
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Thank-you to all those that took the time to address me.
Cold - thanks for the welcome back. I am not sure if I am of any benefit or inspiration to those that are working hard to stay sober. Perhaps, at this point I can be the 'what not to do when your in deep."
Scott - I have no plan. I know exactly what it is that I need to do. I need to walk out of this house, drunk as always, and go to the ER and lay myself out, because sober me is probably the more irrational in terms of admitting there is an issue here.
Delilah, I have no immediate supports. I find it is very difficult to not drink ( My husband is a drinker) and he is also my greatest enabler...he laughs off my drinking nights ( I am way more worse than he) and helps me in terms of household duties like cooking, laundry, cleaning that I should be doing. I love him very much but he is bailing me outta real life responsibilities.
Jim - Congrats on the 140 days. You seem to have an incredibly tolerance as do I. Given how much you drank, it could not be easy to walk away from the mere habit of that. Thanks for the kind words.
Oh Yeah, January - love your name. I named my favourite pet bird January, so I know it was good karma to see you here.
If anyone posted after I wrote this - thanks so much.
Cold - thanks for the welcome back. I am not sure if I am of any benefit or inspiration to those that are working hard to stay sober. Perhaps, at this point I can be the 'what not to do when your in deep."
Scott - I have no plan. I know exactly what it is that I need to do. I need to walk out of this house, drunk as always, and go to the ER and lay myself out, because sober me is probably the more irrational in terms of admitting there is an issue here.
Delilah, I have no immediate supports. I find it is very difficult to not drink ( My husband is a drinker) and he is also my greatest enabler...he laughs off my drinking nights ( I am way more worse than he) and helps me in terms of household duties like cooking, laundry, cleaning that I should be doing. I love him very much but he is bailing me outta real life responsibilities.
Jim - Congrats on the 140 days. You seem to have an incredibly tolerance as do I. Given how much you drank, it could not be easy to walk away from the mere habit of that. Thanks for the kind words.
Oh Yeah, January - love your name. I named my favourite pet bird January, so I know it was good karma to see you here.
If anyone posted after I wrote this - thanks so much.
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Glad you are here. I was the same way, only when I was intoxicated did I have the guts to ask for help. Going to the ER sounds like a good first step, what will you do after that to stay sober?
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Welcome Constance. You've come to the right place. There are many years of collective sobriety here, folks who have been where you are. Stay close to SR, reading and posting often. Hang in there.
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I'm enabling my husband at the moment too--
I stopped drinking--I was much worse than him as well.
He developed a drinking problem over time living with me
During my drinking, he helped enable me.
It's a rough cycle living with a drinker / enabler.
I also got as bad or worse in relapse.
I made a final plan and stopped for good--I hope the sober you is ready to do that soon.
What about making a plan here on this thread.
We can help, you can read it later, and maybe get back on the wagon?
I stopped drinking--I was much worse than him as well.
He developed a drinking problem over time living with me
During my drinking, he helped enable me.
It's a rough cycle living with a drinker / enabler.
I also got as bad or worse in relapse.
I made a final plan and stopped for good--I hope the sober you is ready to do that soon.
What about making a plan here on this thread.
We can help, you can read it later, and maybe get back on the wagon?
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I know exactly what it is that I need to do. I need to walk out of this house, drunk as always, and go to the ER and lay myself out, because sober me is probably the more irrational in terms of admitting there is an issue here.
Great idea! Did ya?
I'm glad you're back Constance.
Great idea! Did ya?
I'm glad you're back Constance.
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You have a lot going for you, not least that you are capable of such honest self-assessment. That's a gift, especially when we're working on getting sober.
You also sound wicked smart, as we say up here. You know what you need...
You can do this!
You also sound wicked smart, as we say up here. You know what you need...
You can do this!
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Hi Constance, sorry you're in this predicament. Your story is similar to mine...incredible tolerance. Ended up in the hospital with a .052 BAC...and I was still able to walk. I was not able to get sober by myself, tapering did not work....withdrawal would set in too quickly. The fear of withdrawal kept me drinking and increasing my tolerance. A medically safe detox was my only avenue to lasting recovery. If you are fearing withdrawal, please see your Dr. or visit the ER. Withdrawals can be and are dangerous! They have meds which can make you much more comfortable during detox. Best Wishes
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Thanks again to all those that posted.
Did I go to the ER? No. Do I have a recovery plan? No.
I think I already know what it is I need to do - I'm pretty positive of that. Like I said, I'm not here for advice - the solution is very clear, I just don't see how I am going to get there.
I think I came here to engage with other alcoholics (active or not), and figure out how to make the leap between knowing what I need to do versus actually gathering the strength to do it. That is my quandary.
Did I go to the ER? No. Do I have a recovery plan? No.
I think I already know what it is I need to do - I'm pretty positive of that. Like I said, I'm not here for advice - the solution is very clear, I just don't see how I am going to get there.
I think I came here to engage with other alcoholics (active or not), and figure out how to make the leap between knowing what I need to do versus actually gathering the strength to do it. That is my quandary.
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You will find "the strength" when you want to be sober MORE than you want to drink!! It's pretty much that simple...Most going into recovery say "I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired". Hope you find the strength to make the leap into recovery. Best Wishes.
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