7 Months - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information
Go Back   SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information >
Register Blogs FAQ Members List Calendar Arcade Mark Forums Read





Reply
LinkBack Thread Tools
Old 04-01-2016, 02:28 AM   #1 (permalink)
Member
 
kinzoku's Avatar
 

Join Date: May 2013
Posts: 852

7 Months


Today a family member died.

Today I am seven months sober.

Today my new job fell through and I have to reconsider my whole life.

Today I am sick with an awful cold.

Today I sat by the river and watched the cherry blossoms blow in the wind.

I thought to myself, I have no thoughts right now. And I was at peace for a while by the water. I listened to the ducks splash. The clicking of bicycle spokes and the muttering of couples and families as their lives criss crossed over mine.

I thought to myself, well, I certainly couldn't have sat here with a hangover.

But its more then that. As my world expands and contracts, suffers its own little implosions and storms, I watch with eyes wide open.

I don't know what to say or do. I am grateful to be alive and healthy (holistically speaking) today. I don't know what tomorrow will bring.

I feel a deep sadness but also love.

-Kin
kinzoku is offline   Reply With Quote
The Following 11 Users Say Thank You to kinzoku For This Useful Post:
Ariesagain (04-01-2016), Bunny211 (04-01-2016), chrcarlson (04-01-2016), Dee74 (04-01-2016), Fly N Buy (04-01-2016), least (04-01-2016), lovingliving (04-01-2016), RegretFree (04-01-2016), sg1970 (04-01-2016), thomas11 (04-01-2016)
Old 04-01-2016, 02:46 AM   #2 (permalink)
Administrator
 
Dee74's Avatar
 

Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
Posts: 176,819
Blog Entries: 1
I'm very sorry for your loss - but I'm inspired by your reaction, Kinzoku

D
__________________
Dee74 is offline   Reply With Quote
The Following User Says Thank You to Dee74 For This Useful Post:
Old 04-01-2016, 02:50 AM   #3 (permalink)
Autumn 2019
 
Soberwolf's Avatar
 

Join Date: Aug 2014
Posts: 66,465
Blog Entries: 4
That was a beautiful post Kin I'm sorry for your loss

Really well written my friend
Soberwolf is offline   Reply With Quote
The Following User Says Thank You to Soberwolf For This Useful Post:
Dee74 (04-01-2016)
Old 04-01-2016, 11:46 AM   #4 (permalink)
Member
 
PurpleKnight's Avatar
 

Join Date: Sep 2012
Location: Ireland
Posts: 25,823
Very sorry for your loss Kinzoku, great job though on your Sobreity!!
PurpleKnight is offline   Reply With Quote
The Following 2 Users Say Thank You to PurpleKnight For This Useful Post:
Dee74 (04-01-2016), Fly N Buy (04-01-2016)
Old 04-01-2016, 12:33 PM   #5 (permalink)
bona fido dog-lover
 
least's Avatar
 

Join Date: Mar 2008
Location: eastern USA
Posts: 79,078
Blog Entries: 32
I'm sorry for the loss of your family member. Congrats on seven months sober!
__________________
I'd rather live in my car with my dogs than live in a castle without them.

Dogs may not be our whole lives, but they make our lives whole.

Don't wait for the Last Judgement. It takes place every day. -Albert Camus

Find the good and praise it. - Alex Haley
least is online now   Reply With Quote
The Following User Says Thank You to least For This Useful Post:
Dee74 (04-01-2016)
Old 04-01-2016, 01:11 PM   #6 (permalink)
Member
 

Join Date: Jan 2016
Location: Northwest
Posts: 3,716
In honor of both your sad loss and your well-earned joy, my favorite poem:

The Peace of Wild Things
BY WENDELL BERRY

When despair for the world grows in me
and I wake in the night at the least sound
in fear of what my life and my children’s lives may be,
I go and lie down where the wood drake
rests in his beauty on the water, and the great heron feeds.
I come into the peace of wild things
who do not tax their lives with forethought
of grief. I come into the presence of still water.
And I feel above me the day-blind stars
waiting with their light. For a time
I rest in the grace of the world, and am free.


Sending you a hug.
Ariesagain is offline   Reply With Quote
The Following User Says Thank You to Ariesagain For This Useful Post:
Dee74 (04-01-2016)
Old 04-01-2016, 02:26 PM   #7 (permalink)
Member
 

Join Date: Apr 2010
Posts: 8,617
Kin, what an inspiration to maintain your sobriety despite losses and hardships. I am sorry you are suffering right now and for the loss of your family member, and I am impressed by your ongoing sobriety and strength.
sleepie is offline   Reply With Quote
The Following User Says Thank You to sleepie For This Useful Post:
Dee74 (04-01-2016)
Reply


Currently Active Users Viewing this Thread: 1 (0 members and 1 guests)
 
Thread Tools


Posting Rules
You may not post new threads
You may not post replies
You may not post attachments
You may not edit your posts

BB code is On
Smilies are On
[IMG] code is On
HTML code is Off
Trackbacks are On
Pingbacks are On
Refbacks are Off




All times are GMT -7. The time now is 09:08 PM.