7 Months
 

Today a family member died.

Today I am seven months sober.

Today my new job fell through and I have to reconsider my whole life.

Today I am sick with an awful cold.

Today I sat by the river and watched the cherry blossoms blow in the wind.

I thought to myself, I have no thoughts right now. And I was at peace for a while by the water. I listened to the ducks splash. The clicking of bicycle spokes and the muttering of couples and families as their lives criss crossed over mine.

I thought to myself, well, I certainly couldn't have sat here with a hangover.

But its more then that. As my world expands and contracts, suffers its own little implosions and storms, I watch with eyes wide open.

I don't know what to say or do. I am grateful to be alive and healthy (holistically speaking) today. I don't know what tomorrow will bring.

I feel a deep sadness but also love.

-Kin

I'm very sorry for your loss - but I'm inspired by your reaction, Kinzoku :)

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That was a beautiful post Kin I'm sorry for your loss

Really well written my friend

Very sorry for your loss Kinzoku, great job though on your Sobreity!! :hug:

I'm sorry for the loss of your family member. :hug: Congrats on seven months sober! :scoregood

In honor of both your sad loss and your well-earned joy, my favorite poem:

The Peace of Wild Things
BY WENDELL BERRY

When despair for the world grows in me
and I wake in the night at the least sound
in fear of what my life and my children’s lives may be,
I go and lie down where the wood drake
rests in his beauty on the water, and the great heron feeds.
I come into the peace of wild things
who do not tax their lives with forethought
of grief. I come into the presence of still water.
And I feel above me the day-blind stars
waiting with their light. For a time
I rest in the grace of the world, and am free.


Sending you a hug.

Kin, what an inspiration to maintain your sobriety despite losses and hardships. I am sorry you are suffering right now and for the loss of your family member, and I am impressed by your ongoing sobriety and strength.