What would you add to your life if you drank again?
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What would you add to your life if you drank again?
So I went to see my wise addiction councillor today. He asked me this question to ponder: If I you drink again, what would you get that you don't get at the moment? I had been explaining that even though most of my life is much better sober there are still times when I fantasise about drinking again.
I'm going to think about his question some more and let you have my answer soon.
I'm going to think about his question some more and let you have my answer soon.
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Pain of waking up and not able to make it to work
Financial pain of realizing that my bar tab was $70 and I had $70 walking in
The look of disgust on the bartenders' faces knowing that I was an alcoholic and being in the position of helping me destroy my life
Those are the first things that come to mind...
Financial pain of realizing that my bar tab was $70 and I had $70 walking in
The look of disgust on the bartenders' faces knowing that I was an alcoholic and being in the position of helping me destroy my life
Those are the first things that come to mind...
And no self respect. And waking up feeling horrible. 
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I would get 3-4 hours of feeling good, euphoric, without a care in the world. Then I would spend the next 3 days trying to chase that feeling those first 6 drinks gave me but never being able to duplicate it. Finally. I would end up just a drunken mess who had shirked his responsibilities for a week and hadn't left the house. The next week would be spent hating myself, a huge departure from the first 6 drinks I had a week before....
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Alcohol is the great remover.
"Alcohol will remove stains from clothing. This is quite correct and just to prove its amazing versatility it will also remove the winter clothes, spring clothes and summer clothes from man, his wife and children if used in sufficient quantity. Alcohol will also remove furniture from the home, rugs from the floor, food from the table, lining from the stomach, vision from the eyes and judgment from the mind. Alcohol will also remove reputations, good jobs, good friends, happiness from the children’s hearts, sanity, freedom, man’s ability to adjust and live with his fellow man and even life itself. As a remover of things, alcohol has no equal." - Author Unknown
"Alcohol will remove stains from clothing. This is quite correct and just to prove its amazing versatility it will also remove the winter clothes, spring clothes and summer clothes from man, his wife and children if used in sufficient quantity. Alcohol will also remove furniture from the home, rugs from the floor, food from the table, lining from the stomach, vision from the eyes and judgment from the mind. Alcohol will also remove reputations, good jobs, good friends, happiness from the children’s hearts, sanity, freedom, man’s ability to adjust and live with his fellow man and even life itself. As a remover of things, alcohol has no equal." - Author Unknown
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Fear and loathing & lots anxious.
I could see how tantalizing the beginning giddiness still remains to me. But it would be so short lived and would lead to the downward spiral of regret and panic.
One bout of controlled drinking does a detox patient make out of me.
Right now I'm finding sobriety as isolating as my worst drinking stages. But it's different and better and I know it will change with time.
I could see how tantalizing the beginning giddiness still remains to me. But it would be so short lived and would lead to the downward spiral of regret and panic.
One bout of controlled drinking does a detox patient make out of me.
Right now I'm finding sobriety as isolating as my worst drinking stages. But it's different and better and I know it will change with time.
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I'm only 28 days in, but for the last week when I have that momenTary thought if never drinking again and feeling that as a negative, my brain then reminds me that alcohol doesn't serve me well, period. I never before was able to resolve that mentally and it has given me some comfort in those moments when I have those thoughts.
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This is a good thread for me today. One interesting thing I have recently read...drinking changes the porosity of our guts (that stomach lining thing again), allowing bacteria that should stay in our intestines out into our bloodstreams. Now that is a fun thought-- I could add to my life: heart disease and arthritis from hordes of bad bacteria setting up shop in arteries and valves and joints.
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Originally Posted by Wastinglife 
I would get 3-4 hours of feeling good, euphoric, without a care in the world. Then I would spend the next 3 days trying to chase that feeling those first 6 drinks gave me but never being able to duplicate it. Finally. I would end up just a drunken mess who had shirked his responsibilities for a week and hadn't left the house. The next week would be spent hating myself, a huge departure from the first 6 drinks I had a week before....
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Originally Posted by BlissWithin
I'm just gonna be a smart ass here and say I would add another recovery If I drank again 
If I use again, it's because I have decided to kill myself.
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Not one thing worthwhile.
Took me about 47 yrs to admit intellectually that was the case. After internalizing and accepting it and deciding to be done with 'it',I realized that part of me ( my AV) won't /can't, isn't able to intellectualize the negative effects of addiction and that trying to fight it was futile. Any thoughts that paint alcohol use for me in a positive light are inherently wrong , I may not be able to stop those thoughts from percolating to the surface but I damn sure do not have to or will act on them. With time the internalization and acceptance grows and those thoughts become more and more fleeting and packed with much less 'pull' .
I don't want to and haven't for awhile now and my plan is to never again drink(and to never change my mind on that plan), does that mean my plan will guarantee that I never may want to ?perhaps not but it doesn't change the plan , it just means the AV presented itself again and the best way to answer it is with the plan (the Big Plan) .
Took me about 47 yrs to admit intellectually that was the case. After internalizing and accepting it and deciding to be done with 'it',I realized that part of me ( my AV) won't /can't, isn't able to intellectualize the negative effects of addiction and that trying to fight it was futile. Any thoughts that paint alcohol use for me in a positive light are inherently wrong , I may not be able to stop those thoughts from percolating to the surface but I damn sure do not have to or will act on them. With time the internalization and acceptance grows and those thoughts become more and more fleeting and packed with much less 'pull' .
I don't want to and haven't for awhile now and my plan is to never again drink(and to never change my mind on that plan), does that mean my plan will guarantee that I never may want to ?perhaps not but it doesn't change the plan , it just means the AV presented itself again and the best way to answer it is with the plan (the Big Plan) .
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