It's official, i'm a raging alcoholic :(
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Join Date: Jun 2015
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You're stuck in a loop and you can't see the way out, I was there too, drinking up to 2 bottles of wine a night, blacking out, feeling horrendous the next day but repeating it over and over again.
The best thing I ever did was make an appointment with my doctor hungover one morning and even though I kept on drinking, I promised myself to go to that appointment.
I went, he listened, he was compassionate, he didn't judge me or belittle me, he made a referral to Addaction.
I kept on drinking but I kept going to every appointment that was made for me, I let the professionals help me, I took on board their advice and I googled the hell out of alcoholism and different ways to get sober.
You don't have to do it on your own, reach out, there is help out there : )))
The best thing I ever did was make an appointment with my doctor hungover one morning and even though I kept on drinking, I promised myself to go to that appointment.
I went, he listened, he was compassionate, he didn't judge me or belittle me, he made a referral to Addaction.
I kept on drinking but I kept going to every appointment that was made for me, I let the professionals help me, I took on board their advice and I googled the hell out of alcoholism and different ways to get sober.
You don't have to do it on your own, reach out, there is help out there : )))
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Join Date: Jan 2014
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Originally Posted by NewJourneyStart 
I have no idea what to do anymore, I know drinking for hours every day is killing me and I don't feel there is anything I can do about it. I don't know where or how to start.
I wish there was a 'How To Quit Drinking For Good' fail safe scheme...
My heart pounds out of my chest every night as I lay there in a pool of sweat, and that's only the nights I remember going to bed. Most nights I black out. I often wonder if I'll even wake up, or how I've even woken up. I'm killing myself with this, I know I am, but I don't feel like I can stop. I don't know how to stop. My life is falling apart and all I care about is when the next opportunity to drink will be. I've lost my job so this is usually soon as my girlfriend has left for work. I don't even care that I'm living from lie to lie, day to day, just wondering when my savings will run out.
I hate everything about myself, everything!
I wish there was a 'How To Quit Drinking For Good' fail safe scheme...
My heart pounds out of my chest every night as I lay there in a pool of sweat, and that's only the nights I remember going to bed. Most nights I black out. I often wonder if I'll even wake up, or how I've even woken up. I'm killing myself with this, I know I am, but I don't feel like I can stop. I don't know how to stop. My life is falling apart and all I care about is when the next opportunity to drink will be. I've lost my job so this is usually soon as my girlfriend has left for work. I don't even care that I'm living from lie to lie, day to day, just wondering when my savings will run out.
I hate everything about myself, everything!
http://www.aa.org/assets/en_US/en_bigbook_chapt2.pdf
(Linked with permission of Alcoholics Anonymous World Services, Inc.)
AA is where it began for me. AA wasn't my "fail safe scheme" - but it was the foundation of my solution in the early days.
You don't have to go on hating yourself.... you can be free of all that. Free of booze. Free of the cycle of shame and despair. FREE.... JOYFUL.... life can be great.
Welcome.
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Join Date: Oct 2011
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Have to agree with the above poster. AA saved my life. It's not the only way to get sober, but it is a simple program permitted you can follow directions.
I was seeking a chemical solution to a spiritual problem, that problem has been solved.
Get a plan and see what happens. You CAN do this.
I was seeking a chemical solution to a spiritual problem, that problem has been solved.
Get a plan and see what happens. You CAN do this.
Sobriety is an adventure.
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Join Date: Nov 2015
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I get drunk, eat crap food, wake up hungover and feeling/starting to look a little chubby round the middle and it still doesn't stop me. When my girlfriend leaves for work I start drinking and eating any food that's left from the take out the night before. It's just an endless cycle of misery. I used to always get a lot of attention from girls for being quite attractive, now I look at myself and wonder where it all went wrong.
I'm only 27, surely I could turn my life around and be living an amazingly rich and full life without a single drop of alcohol by the time I'm 30?
I'm only 27, surely I could turn my life around and be living an amazingly rich and full life without a single drop of alcohol by the time I'm 30?
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Join Date: May 2014
Posts: 596
There is a big chasm between realizing you have a major problem, and then taking that first step to fix it. I knew I had a problem for many, many years before finally taking that first step to fix it (and believe me, even after that it was a bumpy road).
Coming here is that first big step, it shows you want to change. Sobriety is possible, plenty of success stories here. You can do this!
Coming here is that first big step, it shows you want to change. Sobriety is possible, plenty of success stories here. You can do this!
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