learning to feel
waking down
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Join Date: Dec 2013
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LIP, I've been inviting feelings I used to consider challenging. Grief, for example... I used to drink to "deal" with it, but I have a paralyzed dog that is not long for this world. Yesterday, I petted her and purposefully felt the depth of my sorrow. It was a sweet pain. Nothing to fear much less numb...
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Join Date: Oct 2015
Location: Horse Country
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Thank you...
I really needed to read this today. I have so much fear of facing my grief, anger.....all of it. My drinking became a problem when I was diagnosed with a chronic, progressive neurological disease. My life seemed perfect before that moment. I realize now that it never was.
But I felt such an obligation to keep my **** together for my husband and children that I literally swallowed my fear, sadness and yes....rage that this was happening to me. So I drank it away. Didn't feel it.
Now I know I will never get better unless I really feel these things. And boy am I! And it's SO hard because it doesn't feel " normal" yet. But it will, it will.
I really needed to read this today. I have so much fear of facing my grief, anger.....all of it. My drinking became a problem when I was diagnosed with a chronic, progressive neurological disease. My life seemed perfect before that moment. I realize now that it never was.
But I felt such an obligation to keep my **** together for my husband and children that I literally swallowed my fear, sadness and yes....rage that this was happening to me. So I drank it away. Didn't feel it.Now I know I will never get better unless I really feel these things. And boy am I! And it's SO hard because it doesn't feel " normal" yet. But it will, it will.
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