julesonya

Every week I have to restart. If i spent as much time executing my plan as I did planning it instead of drinking, I would be a month sober. Instead I am sitting here thinking about the wine I drank yesterday & how puffy my face is today & how my stomach is killing me.
I want to spend Christmas as a sober mom to my son. I want to remember it. Hell I can't find some of his presents bc I was drunk when I hid them. This is not a life.

biminiblue

You deserve so much better, jules.

Go to bed sober tonight. I'm never sorry when I do that.

I just don't pick up a drink, no matter what. One day after the other.

least

You're right - it's no kind of decent life.

I hope you spend Christmas sober.

ccam1973

You absolutely can do this JS. Commit to what you want to get out of your day. It's a tough commitment, but so worth what you will get out of it.

Envision yourself waking up tomorrow without a hangover and being able to spend Christmas Eve and Christmas Day clear headed with your son.

You can do this.

tursiops999

Hang on to this jules, your love for your son. It will help you get sober. You can do this.

Soberwolf

Learn from it JulesSonya x

Dee74

Make a plan Jules:

https://store.samhsa.gov/shin/conten...0/SMA-3720.pdf

you can do this

D

Anna

Jules, you can be the person and the mom you want to be.

D122y

J,

Been sober for nearly 8 months. What kept me sober was this site. This site educated me on what was going on in my mind. The alcohol warps the mind.

It causes brain damage. Period. When I stopped drinking, the healing began. I am stronger by the minute. I don't always feel great, but I feel better.

It took a couple of very painful weeks, then several maddening months to heal to my current state of normalcy.

I crave, but I use my logical mind to remind myself of the living hell I have been through. All for a few minutes of prison like euphoric stupor, that ends in physical anguish etc etc. Doesn't make sense to me anymore. We don't see that on TV.

I don't believe the hype. Alcohol is not a party. It is a prison. I am on parole. I never want to go back.

Pondlady

Absolutely get sober, for you and your son. Make sure you have no alcohol in the house and make some plans to do something to distract you if you're craving a drink.

IronPhoenix

Jules - you have the motivation you need right in front of you and you have us here to help as well. Dig deep and make it a sober Christmas.

waywardson8260

A sober Christmas eve starts tomorrow. I can't think of a better time to quit drinking, not just for your son but for yourself.

rahrah

Brilliant! I love this quote! You're so right...Drinking is a prison...and I'm grateful to be on parole! No matter how hard it is!

Inchworm

Jules, your post makes me so sad. The pain of addiction mirrors the sorrow and suffering of the living as we face our eventual deaths. Sobriety reflects the joy of the living as we turn toward our Lives once more. Turn toward life once more, my dear.

chiro

Your post is a very honest one. With all due respect, what is more important, your feelings or your child?
A fool vents all their feelings but a wise person holds them in check. Proverbs 29:11
Don't be conformed to this world, be transformed in your thinking. Romans 12:2

Change your thinking and change your life. People change when they hurt enough and have to, or learn enough and want to.

My prayers are with you and your family.

PurpleKnight

You can have the life you hope for Jules!!

For me I needed to change up my routines, each week I'd make good intentions and then drink come the weekend, my plan therefore needed to deal with where was the alcohol coming from, and how could I short-circuit the habit of picking some up at the liquor store!!

You can do this!!