Day 1
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Day 1
Well, got the meds and I'm doing it. There's good food and no booze in my apartment. Predictably, I feel awful and can barely function -- like I can do a couple of tasks and then it's back to bed. Got vitamins too but I don't think I can keep them down yet. So my plan for today is to just stay inside -- I can't buy alcohol if I stay home and rest. I'm feeling incredibly weak and my decision-making is terrible at the moment.
I found an AA meeting I like OK that's nearby, people my age mostly, and daily at 6:45 M-F. Starting tomorrow I'm going to start going, plus a SMART Recovery meeting on Saturdays that I really like. I have Friday phone appointments with my shrink, and she knows what I'm doing.
I had quit a couple of weeks ago, but then something upsetting happened. I don't have any criminal issues, but I have a civil judgment against me I have no way of paying. I was never served papers, did not know about the court date, and the bench warrant arrived in the mail. It's from a vengeful, wealthy ex. So I drank all day yesterday and now feel like crap.
But there is some good news with this. The vengeful ex defamed me blatantly -- called me a felon -- on video readily available online. I contacted THE biggest defamenent attorney for women, and much to my delight, I think she's going to take the case...on contingency, no less.
So I am committed to getting through today, and tomorrow will feel much better. Might check in with you nice people often.
I found an AA meeting I like OK that's nearby, people my age mostly, and daily at 6:45 M-F. Starting tomorrow I'm going to start going, plus a SMART Recovery meeting on Saturdays that I really like. I have Friday phone appointments with my shrink, and she knows what I'm doing.
I had quit a couple of weeks ago, but then something upsetting happened. I don't have any criminal issues, but I have a civil judgment against me I have no way of paying. I was never served papers, did not know about the court date, and the bench warrant arrived in the mail. It's from a vengeful, wealthy ex. So I drank all day yesterday and now feel like crap.
But there is some good news with this. The vengeful ex defamed me blatantly -- called me a felon -- on video readily available online. I contacted THE biggest defamenent attorney for women, and much to my delight, I think she's going to take the case...on contingency, no less.
So I am committed to getting through today, and tomorrow will feel much better. Might check in with you nice people often.
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Welcome Crimzone! You've found a wonderful place for friendship and support.
It's amazing how we always think drinking will help calm us down & see us through a bad time. It does just the opposite, as we finally acknowledge. I clung to it for many years - always expecting a different outcome. It almost destroyed me. I'm glad you're in the process of getting free of it. Keep posting & let us know how you're doing. We care.
It's amazing how we always think drinking will help calm us down & see us through a bad time. It does just the opposite, as we finally acknowledge. I clung to it for many years - always expecting a different outcome. It almost destroyed me. I'm glad you're in the process of getting free of it. Keep posting & let us know how you're doing. We care.
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In-between tasks, lying in bed, I'm watching a wonderful Youtube documentary (Cherry Healey - Old Before My Time - Alcohol Documentary). It's very motivating. Wow, a drunk's apartment is really a sight to behold. I'll have plenty to do all day!
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Originally Posted by Londonlucy 
Hi Crimzone, I am also on day 1, hungover from last nights binge and feeling rubbish, this is a fantastic site I only found it yesterday and I am so glad I signed up. We can and will do this.
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Join Date: Dec 2005
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I also sending recovery support your way
too along with others at all stages of recovery
helping each other, communicating,
understanding with lots of hope that
if many of us have learned to remain
sober or clean a many one day at a
time incorporating tools and knowledge
of addiction to all areas of our lives,
then so can you.
I will never tell another member what
to do but rather by suggestion only in
sharing my own ESH - experiences,
strengths and hopes of my life was
and is and was like before, during and
after my addiction to alcohol.
So many in recovery paved the path
for me and others to follow and I have
done so for the past 25 yrs now.
There are promises, gifts, rewards to
enjoy along our journey in life and
recovery merely by living and working
with important steps, tools and knowledge
of a recovery program each day we
don't drink.
Ive been using SR for awhile now as
an extra recovery tool and lifeline to
my own recovery program and has
been very helpful.
Stay positive and continue to listen,
learn, absorb and apply your recovery
program to ur own life to achieve
healthy, happiness and honesty for
yrs to come.
too along with others at all stages of recovery
helping each other, communicating,
understanding with lots of hope that
if many of us have learned to remain
sober or clean a many one day at a
time incorporating tools and knowledge
of addiction to all areas of our lives,
then so can you.
I will never tell another member what
to do but rather by suggestion only in
sharing my own ESH - experiences,
strengths and hopes of my life was
and is and was like before, during and
after my addiction to alcohol.
So many in recovery paved the path
for me and others to follow and I have
done so for the past 25 yrs now.
There are promises, gifts, rewards to
enjoy along our journey in life and
recovery merely by living and working
with important steps, tools and knowledge
of a recovery program each day we
don't drink.
Ive been using SR for awhile now as
an extra recovery tool and lifeline to
my own recovery program and has
been very helpful.
Stay positive and continue to listen,
learn, absorb and apply your recovery
program to ur own life to achieve
healthy, happiness and honesty for
yrs to come.
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Originally Posted by Crimzone
Hi London Lucy! So you know you have a sister in hangover all the way in Los Angeles! Let's be sober buddies! I'm in my fifties and simply can't do this any more. I think my high-functioning has completely gone out the window now. Already feeling a little better. Maybe a walk later -- but without any money on me for obvious reasons.
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Well, it's 1 pm and I'm feeling better. Watching documentaries about alcohol and health is really helping. Also that my apt looks a little better. I'm not even going out to take out the trash -- I was pretty toasted the other night, yelled at my neighbor, and there was a note on my door that I don't have the guts to read. LOL. One more advantage of not drinking. But wow, the liver damage I'm seeing on these videos -- yikes. Now on to fold laundry and make up my bed -- been sleeping on it without sheets for days. Typical.
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Got a craving for a Hawaiian Shave Ice (fluffier Sno-Cone). Went out for a honeydew one with chopped mangoes. So good. Passed three liquor stores and am surprised the thought of drinking anything made me gag. Feeling much better and have not been eating. But noticed it's food truck night in the neighborhood and there's a LOBSTER roll truck! No booze there, too. So there's dinner.
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Today is a new sober day for you. What
and awesome new day will it be with no
poison running rapid thru you body.
Whatever positive effective things you
did yesterday that kept you sober each
minute of the day, then repeat today.
Don't THINK about alcohol. Don't DRINK
alcohol. And incorporate a program of recovery
in all areas of your life each day. An affective
or good way to remain sober day after day.
Not yesterday, not tomorrow but today. Each
day.
and awesome new day will it be with no
poison running rapid thru you body.
Whatever positive effective things you
did yesterday that kept you sober each
minute of the day, then repeat today.
Don't THINK about alcohol. Don't DRINK
alcohol. And incorporate a program of recovery
in all areas of your life each day. An affective
or good way to remain sober day after day.
Not yesterday, not tomorrow but today. Each
day.
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