getting off suboxone for good!
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getting off suboxone for good!
Well first I'll say that suboxone did indeed help me get off pills in 2010. Back on October 10th of 2010 my best friend committed suicide due to what I think was deep depression due to the fact he could not get off the OC him and I both battled with this problem. It was the worst day of my life when I got that call. At this time I was married with one kid, I ALWAYS kept a good job a provided for my family the best I could and I was very successful. But oxy had me by the balls and I knew it. I hid it from my wife among doing other drugs coke mainly. The day I got that call and rushed to my friends house to support his family. As they brought his body from the house in a body bag I lost my mind and broke down and then hit my low. The funeral was so hard to let go a bury my best friend all i could see is us 10 years old riding our bikes talking about who we wanted to be in life, certainly not a drug addict. About a week after the funeral I got out of control with the pills snorting them even in the bathroom at work. Normally I'd just take 4 oxys my mouth while I was at work. Well my dealer decided to clean up and stop selling. So the only other thing I could get was hydrocodin 10mg. I'd take 15-20 a days and it was really taking all my extra spending money and my wife started to notice how bad I was and how sick I would be if I didn't have them.. so then I decided it was time. Time to get clean.. or I thought. I've had a long history of drug abuse from dmt, coke, pot, extacy,acid and I am sure there are other I am missing. I struggled with drugs since 2005 and in 2006 got on pain meds. After 2 years of this battle and losing my long life best friend I said enough is enough and jumped on suboxone from my doctor the adjustment was not hard because I was still getting a fix from the subs. Taking four 8mg suboxone a day! I stayed at that dose for a long while. After my head was clear some what I dropped to one 8 MG a day. Free from all drugs other then subs and pot I started looking for another job and quit smoking pot. I landed a job at a huge aerospace company in my field of expertise as a cnc machinist making more money then I've ever made and back when I started seemed like a lot of money at 55k a year. I worked hard but slowly fell back into bad habits with my new Co workers doing coke on night shift and taking oxys while skipping out in my sub dose. I still worked hard and made good parts and got me a small promotion and moved to the day shift. I totally got my **** together by this point and stopped everything and went back on subs. I stayed clean for years with subs. Worked hard and became a family man. I started to get depressed because I knew I was still having a hard time with bills and making ends meet because I've always been the one who worked while my wife was a stay at home mother with now two kids. I asked for a raise and was shot down because the company was not doing well. Anyhow I started looking for another job here in June of 2015 my father is very successful man and worked at ford motor company and made huge money. I decided I would apply for a machine specialist job or tool maker. I put in for both. Still on subs clean from all other drugs. Well I got the call! And was hired! I felt so great about what I had done and doubled my income and how far I've came I decided it was time to live 100 percent clean because I always had in the back of my mind I was still on subs and I wanted to be free and claim my life back for good. So I went 2 days with no subs at my job at fords at it was terrible! I could not take it. Mind u I tapered down to 1/2 of a mg! Lol and it was still bad. So I asked my doctor if I could have something that would help me so they gave me nerotin still feeling withdrawal badly I forced me self to do my daily things and still work hard at work. Here it is 11 days later and I am not taking but one 300mg nerotin a day once in the morning. I know it's not doing anything for me and my withdrawal is mental. Getting my self to such a low dose before I jumped off subs was the key to success. I am now feeling almost normal and have energy. I bought my house at 20 years old here I am now 29 and working at fords making a 6 figure income 100 percent clean looking for another home in a nice area for my 2 kids and wife! They deserve it.. It's been two days and I have not taken my morning dose of nerotin and I feel better not taking them!! I finally after over 10 years battling with pills and suboxone and coke I am finally over my past and have moved on to a better place. Yesterday I went to the cemetery and had a few words with my friend got a little emotional but the feeling of finally beating this drug is the most crazy feeling almost like a high of its own! I finally did it. Never looking back and I am ready for the next chapter of my life. I wanted to share my story with you all and let u guys know it's possible to get off suboxone I was onit for 5 years and tapered down to nothing and jumped off. If I can doit you can to!! I hope this may help some one. I really want to help people get clean.
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Thank you! It's been a tough road. Withdrawals are hard to deal with especially when u have to work and can't lay around. But I think that helped me honestly having stuff to focus on other then how bad I felt. I didn't give up. When I knew all I have to do is take a pill and I'd feel better I knew I'd be better off with out it. And I was right. I hope I can help some one get off subs and do the taper process like I did. I joined this site for support for my self and support others. This is a really great thing and I am happy I can be a part of it!
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