mary2788

Hey guys ,

Day 22 here! YAY…I finally have admitted and accepted the fact hat I am an addict..
The feelings are coming back everyday I am learning and discovering and uncovering a feeling and aspect about myself..Recovery is bitter sweet..

I am so so exhausted, mentally and physically. I am in school, I work and I attend meetings every night pretty much.
Today I want to just take the day and relax in the sun by myself. I want to isolate myself for the day but not because I want to be alone but because I am comfortable with my one thoughts and want to enjoy the quite time! There is a first for eerything.!! This is going to be a much for me I think from now on.. i need to recharge my thoughts and emotions.

What did everyone else enjoy that they still love to do?
I never thought I would be happy without a beer in my hand .. but its a great feeling. Real feelings are scary but awesome

DitzyDandelion

Well done on 22 days. I am still at a pretty delicate stage so can't answer your question. Maybe I will come back and answer it next week .

Delfin

Yes, real feelings are scary but awesome. Couldn't agree more. I'm feeling the same as you, emotional and tired a lot, but really good. Could be worse, right? :-)

Delfin

Soberwolf

Great job on 22 days

Anna

Mary, 22 days is fantastic!

I found that it was important to spend quiet time with myself in early recovery and I still do. I am not someone who can be 'on the go' endlessly. In fact, being too busy was part of what led me to drinking.

mary2788

Your right! I don't want to isolate myself but it is healthy to spend time alone now that it isn't out of self pity and hangovers.. its because I aurally need to recharge! Perhaps Ill make Sunday my me day!

Dee74

you're sounding great Mary

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