Edgy...
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Edgy...
I thought the obsession to drink had been lifted. I was wrong. I'm just so used to having something to take the edge off, to make me say "Ahhh.." I feel like I'm going to come out of my skin. Everything my husband says and does is like running fingernails down a chalkboard to me.
What is wrong with me? When will this get better?
What is wrong with me? When will this get better?
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Hi Eliasson,
I'm not sure how long you've been sober, but I think those feelings are fairly normal. It's not easy to learn how to deal with life without alcohol. Can you take a break and go out for a walk or call a friend?
I'm not sure how long you've been sober, but I think those feelings are fairly normal. It's not easy to learn how to deal with life without alcohol. Can you take a break and go out for a walk or call a friend?
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There's absolutely nothing wrong with you - at least no more than the rest of us 
I was a heavy drinker for 20 years. I used drinking for all kinds of stress relief.
I thought about drinking for a few months - the thoughts faded , then got less and less.
I got better at dealing with stress, and felt less on edge too
Give it time Eliasson
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I was a heavy drinker for 20 years. I used drinking for all kinds of stress relief.
I thought about drinking for a few months - the thoughts faded , then got less and less.
I got better at dealing with stress, and felt less on edge too
Give it time Eliasson
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Could you perhaps place some distance between you and your husband? There is nothing wrong with you; you are healing and it is normal to feel tired, angry, and a whole lot of other emotions. Even if you go in to another room....watch a movie, read a book, go for a walk......suggest he visit relatives? Wishing you peace and serenity.
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Thank you. Today is Day 13 sober, which is a miracle for me. I really want to get through the yucky part to see what's on the other side because so many of you with long term sobriety say it's worth it. I don't want to give up. Alcohol has had a grip on me for 36 years tho and I'm 49. So most of my life. I guess it will take time. Thank you for helping to carry me through this.
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Eliasson , I remember replying to one of your posts . Was about your Husband making drinks & asking if you want one ... Makes me wonder if that's why you keep having trouble ?
It has to be very hard if that's still happening
It has to be very hard if that's still happening
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Nest- yes he was doing that. He is a very heavy drinker and I don't think he wanted to lose his drinking partner, and I wouldn't want to upset him so I would drink. This time I sat him down and told him exactly how dangerous alcohol is for me. I held nothing back. He still doesn't quite get it, but he has not had a drink in front of me at all and isn't bringing wine into the house so far. It helps so much. I hope it lasts, at least until I have some good sobriety under my belt.
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Eliasson, I know what you mean about that edgy feeling. It's like a curtain has been ripped down and you're seeing every raw and ugly thing that you wanted to keep hidden. The amount of information in a person's face completely overwhelms me sometimes!
I agree, get some space, even if it's just stepping into the next room for a few minutes. I have a "fingernails on chalkboard" co worker and sometimes all I can do is close my eyes for five seconds and take a little vacation in the land-of-not-saying anything in response.
It's going to smooth out. Be strong!
I agree, get some space, even if it's just stepping into the next room for a few minutes. I have a "fingernails on chalkboard" co worker and sometimes all I can do is close my eyes for five seconds and take a little vacation in the land-of-not-saying anything in response.
It's going to smooth out. Be strong!
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Elliason, I agree with others, there is nothing wrong with you. Just stay the course, at all costs. Nice to hear your husband is cooperating a little bit, hopefully that will continue and make it easier. 36 years is a pretty good stretch of drinking, I doubt bouncing back from that will happen in 13 days...but it will happen. Good job and I wish you the best.
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That's one good thing Elliason , at least you don't have that temptation with your hubby
I really wish I could come up with a magic solution to make sobriety easier . In reality it isn't . It's just plain hard work , good & bad days . I look at it as you do get more Good days then Bad the longer you stay Sober ..
I really wish I could come up with a magic solution to make sobriety easier . In reality it isn't . It's just plain hard work , good & bad days . I look at it as you do get more Good days then Bad the longer you stay Sober ..
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