Zebra1275

well I didn't back home now had an awesome time

It sounds to me like you are not ready to quit drinking.

It sounds like the major consequence to your drinking is your family's negative reaction.

Trying to stay sober just to please others, when deep down you're having an awesome time is not going to work. What's going to happen is that you are going to devise new, creative ways to hide your drinking.

Bird615

It helps me to remember that I don't ever have to feel that way again if I don't want to.
And then take whatever steps I need to to ensure that.

CaseyW

Welcome back, exwell66.

Hevyn

How's it going for you today, exwell?

exwell66

well considering I drank aprox 1 gallon of rum from sunday until Friday I don't feel so bad.Crappy night last night knew that was going to be the case.I am back on the wagon and don't have any craving to drink,almost made 90 days and that didn't happen by accident neither did me relapsing.I listen to everyone here and doing what I did was and is dangerous.The thing I keep saying to myself is I cant go back.I in no way will make an excuse by listening to that voice telling me its ok to drink at a wedding or something along those lines.If I wanted to play the game and keep my buzz going but that's a death wish so lesson learned I hope.......I don't feel like I am missing anything by being not buzzed again.So today is a good day and looking forward to being normal again

Hevyn

I'm really glad to hear that ex. It was the fear of missing out that kept me drinking for many years. Seeking the old euphoria I used to get. It's never going to be there for me again - picking up always leads to misery.

exwell66

honestly the first drink that I took sunday afternoon was in private ,sneaky you know the buzz or rush caught me off guard.I enjoyed it, but that moment became well back to it being a job.So somebody reading this might think dummy why pickup if you already know the outcome.Well that's why I am here

Delilah1

Glad you are back, I made 90 days the first time I felt serious about quitting, and then slowly started drinking again. I find myself back at a crossroads, not drinking a lot, but could easily slip quickly into drinking too much. I am working on coming back as well.

exwell66

even though I think hey whats the big deal of a glass of whatever I know its not an option.Made my mistake now back to the fun

thomas11

Exwell66, you sound like you are in a healthy frame of mind. The key is to stay there. Good job.