My Journey - Day 1
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Join Date: May 2015
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My Journey - Day 1
Today is day 1 for me. I've struggled with alcohol for years, but never admitted to being an alcoholic to myself, or especially to anyone else. I know I'm an alcoholic. It took my husband saying the words out loud for me to admit it. It's embarrassing to me. That's partly why I haven't gotten the help I know I truly need to beat this lifelong disease. I can't live and continue to drink. Not only because I truly will die, but I cannot live with the shame and embarrassment. I can't live with the paranoid thoughts, anxiety, panic attacks. I never had those things before I became a hardcore alcoholic (waking up at 6 am on the weekends and the first thing pour a glass of wine). Hard liquor, too. I don't discriminate. I want sobriety so badly. For myself and my husband and our two year old beautiful daughter. I'm starting a new job, in a new state, where I can be whoever I want to be. I'm anxious about all of these changes, and they cause me to panic, but if I can stay sober, I know life will be great. Please say a prayer for me to stay strong. And let me know what's helped you in your journeys. I will be starting AA meetings once I arrive in the new state.
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You've come to a good place to help you in your journey to sobriety. There is a ton of great wisdom and support to be found here. Please post often and don't be afraid to ask for help!
Do be aware that withdrawing from alcohol can have some serious physical effects. It's always a good idea to talk to a doctor about your quitting.
Do be aware that withdrawing from alcohol can have some serious physical effects. It's always a good idea to talk to a doctor about your quitting.
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Welcome to the family! 
I will keep you in my prayers and ask for strength for you to beat this addiction. 
What helped me the most was finally wanting to be sober more than I wanted to drink.
I will keep you in my prayers and ask for strength for you to beat this addiction. What helped me the most was finally wanting to be sober more than I wanted to drink.
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Join Date: Jan 2015
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Congratulations on quitting.
Maybe moving to a new state will be a help as you won't have familiar people and places that you are used to drinking with or in.
Going to AA sounds like you are definitely serious and coming here is a good place for support and advice.
Good luck kgr
Maybe moving to a new state will be a help as you won't have familiar people and places that you are used to drinking with or in.
Going to AA sounds like you are definitely serious and coming here is a good place for support and advice.
Good luck kgr
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Join Date: Apr 2015
Location: Kansas
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"Maybe moving to a new state will be a help as you won't have familiar people and places that you are used to drinking with or in"
Ditto this! I am moving (albeit across town) and starting a new job myself, I have a great newer boyfriend (7 months) and do not want to ruin that relationship. So I take it as a chance to be a better me. I have a 6 yr old so I know the self blame and guilt you feel. Its hard being a mom and alcohol is an easy way to step out of all the chaos. I am new to no alcohol myself, its not easy but you know what, you carried a baby around for 40 weeks and gave birth- those are no small feats. Keep your chin up!
Ditto this! I am moving (albeit across town) and starting a new job myself, I have a great newer boyfriend (7 months) and do not want to ruin that relationship. So I take it as a chance to be a better me. I have a 6 yr old so I know the self blame and guilt you feel. Its hard being a mom and alcohol is an easy way to step out of all the chaos. I am new to no alcohol myself, its not easy but you know what, you carried a baby around for 40 weeks and gave birth- those are no small feats. Keep your chin up!
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Join Date: May 2015
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Definitely not the worst withdrawal I've ever experienced, so I think I'll be okay going cold turkey. Actually, i feel eerily calm. I would hit a meeting tonight, but we're only 4 hours into a 20 hour drive. I will keep you posted on day two. Brothers graduation party... I WILL resist the urge to have even one sip of alcohol.
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Welcome kgr - congratulations on your first day. You'll find this to be an encouraging place as you begin your sober life. I was drinking in the morning too - and all day in the end. It feels great to be free of it.
You'll find this to be an encouraging place as you begin your sober life. I was drinking in the morning too - and all day in the end. It feels great to be free of it.
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Day 2
Day 2, at my brother's graduation. Having a little anxiety, but nothing I can't deal with. Later is the graduation party, with lots of alcohol. I know I can stay strong even being around so much drinking. I will keep everyone posted. Thanks for the support!
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