SoberHoopsFan

Welcome aboard. The negative things you describe in your first post is where alcohol always leads. It promises a lot, fun, a great time, an escape, but then delivers almost exclusively negative. If you have a drinking pattern like yours, it just won't simply get better. If alcohol is a negative force in your life, it is likely to stay that way. You have done the right thing reaching out here, lot of support and helpful people here. No judgment either because everyone has been where you've been (or worse).