I failed again
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Join Date: Jul 2014
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I failed again
I had a long weekend and drank. Today is my first day back at work. I already decided to get sober but I feel absolutely miserable. Anxiety, tired and dizzy and overall out of it. I've quit so many times and want sobriety so badly but always end up failing. I'm so upset and feel like I let my family down.
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Join Date: Aug 2003
Location: Dancing in the Light
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Hi Zack,
It might be helpful if you figured out why you decided to drink again and then tried to come up with healthy ways to deal with things. Know for sure that you can do this, and I'm glad you're back.
It might be helpful if you figured out why you decided to drink again and then tried to come up with healthy ways to deal with things. Know for sure that you can do this, and I'm glad you're back.
Trudgin
Join Date: Jul 2014
Posts: 6,348
Zack - Will power for me just did not work. For some I read they can seem to find enough gumption to get through without drinking.
We are all different. I read your threads and you remind me of what I went through. I had a level of desire and when I said I would quit I really meant it.
Then, inevitably I would drink again.
Finally I became willing to at least explore the idea of face to face support. I started that last June and have not had a drink since the 9th .........
I only share this because is seems like you have genuine desire but may need some additional tools. I am sharing my experience for that reason - there is a solution beside just our own will power.
F2F support coupled with SR has made all the difference in the world for me.
Glad your here posting -
Keep coming back
We are all different. I read your threads and you remind me of what I went through. I had a level of desire and when I said I would quit I really meant it.
Then, inevitably I would drink again.
Finally I became willing to at least explore the idea of face to face support. I started that last June and have not had a drink since the 9th .........
I only share this because is seems like you have genuine desire but may need some additional tools. I am sharing my experience for that reason - there is a solution beside just our own will power.
F2F support coupled with SR has made all the difference in the world for me.
Glad your here posting -
Keep coming back
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Join Date: May 2012
Location: Wisconsin, USA
Posts: 16,945
Welcome back Zackman. Reading back through your posts since last November you've returned to drinking 4 times and started 4 threads about it. What all of them have in common is that you have not replied or posted in a single one of them other than the initial post about the recent drinking.
I point that out not to belittle you or discourage you, but to illustrate that recovery and sobriety are a process...and you need to work on that process each day. That means choosing some kind of sobriety method or plan and working on it each and every day. You can't just "decide to be sober" and stop drinking....it doesn't work that way unfortunately.
Have you every tried meetings like AA or LifeRing/others? Have you ever seen an alcohol/drug counselor? Have you ever talked to your doctor about your drinking problem? Those would be some great places to start.
Spending time here on SR and reading/replying/asking questions is also very helpful...many people use it as their primary support. But like all of them, they will only work if you do the work.
Hope you can stick around and feel better soon.
I point that out not to belittle you or discourage you, but to illustrate that recovery and sobriety are a process...and you need to work on that process each day. That means choosing some kind of sobriety method or plan and working on it each and every day. You can't just "decide to be sober" and stop drinking....it doesn't work that way unfortunately.
Have you every tried meetings like AA or LifeRing/others? Have you ever seen an alcohol/drug counselor? Have you ever talked to your doctor about your drinking problem? Those would be some great places to start.
Spending time here on SR and reading/replying/asking questions is also very helpful...many people use it as their primary support. But like all of them, they will only work if you do the work.
Hope you can stick around and feel better soon.
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Join Date: Aug 2007
Location: Upstate New York
Posts: 51,569
Zackman - you sound fed up & disgusted. That's the point I had to get to. I finally acknowledged that drinking was never going to be fun again - those days were gone & never coming back. All drinking brought me was misery, guilt, remorse - no reason to cling to it. You can do this zackman.
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