kinzoku

I was thinking about my journey into abusing substances and I drew a link that I'd never drawn before. For two years I smoked marijuana like a fiend and it totally destroyed parts of my life and then I cut it off completely and a lot of those areas improved.

For some reason I never thought about alcohol in that way. I always thought there was just, hey, something in me that can't handle weed and that abuses it. Well of course its the same for alcohol. I never think to myself "gee getting high would really help me out in this social/whatever situation". Because I know it just turns me into a wreck. Its the same with alcohol but its just harder for me to see. For many reasons I guess.

Just a thought I had this morning. Maybe the comparison isn't wholly apt, but I had nowhere else to share it, and at the time it seemed meaningful.

OnMyWay7

I agree - pills - then alcohol. Takes a while to see they're all bad.

Dee74

It took me a while to see that my problem wasn't alcohol or pot...the problem was me.

Alcohol and pot were just my maladaptive ways of trying to cope with being me.

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SoberComposer

i feel the same as Dee.. i used alcohol and pot to numb the pain of a difficult world.. i didn't think it was fair and the thought of quitting my shield seemed unbearable. i have also learned that by facing the pain.. i have a chance to understand how i put myself in that pain and change my behavior. while i had my shield up, i avoided the pain.. thus never removing the causes of the pain, alcohol/negative thought patterns. healthy supports healthy and unhealthy supports unhealthy.. however people want to understand this life.. i choose to be sober and full of passion because one day my youth will be a memory and my present will be created from the past.

one love

anattaboy

My "discovery" was somewhat flipped to yours as I never saw weed as particularly harmful--it is for me. Alcohol is downright devastating once one becomes dependent.

PurpleKnight

I was blinded to the destruction alcohol was causing for a long tim, sometimes it's just hard to see in the middle of addiction, until something makes us sit up and really think about things!!

kinzoku

Though I agree, what scares me about this line of thinking is that it leads me to the conclusion that once I fix myself I can then go back to being a casual drinker. Which is dangerous, as my many failed attempts to quit indicate.

TennantSmith

Well, for me alcohol, but I agree 100%