Getting desperate
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Getting desperate
I joined AA in 1998 adn have never gone away but I have been using AA as my controlled drinking program. I am drionking again and finding myself stuck in a familiar pattern. I know I can't control this but because I drink in a controlled and measured way I get away with it on a day to day basis. I know that this will blow up but I just seem to convince myself it will all be ok. It won't. This has to stop but I am trapped again. AHHHRRRR! SO frustrating!
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Join Date: Aug 2013
Location: C.C. Ma.
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hi.
" I have been using AA as my controlled drinking program."
Is this a new step where we act in an undisciplined manner similar to when we were drinking and make our own deadly way in a miserable life?
As Dr. Phil would ask TV viewers “HOWS IT WORKING FOR YA?”
Back to basics: It’s the first drink that gets us drunk even years later.
Best wishes.
BE WELL
" I have been using AA as my controlled drinking program."
Is this a new step where we act in an undisciplined manner similar to when we were drinking and make our own deadly way in a miserable life?
As Dr. Phil would ask TV viewers “HOWS IT WORKING FOR YA?”
Back to basics: It’s the first drink that gets us drunk even years later.
Best wishes.
BE WELL
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Join Date: Feb 2015
Location: Maryland
Posts: 93
Slipper. I'm new around here myself. I love this place. I mostly just hang around and read. What do you think of my new avatar ? I'm kind of an old yippie from the 60's and 70's Keep yourself busy and visit this place often. I receive positive information and life real stories about recovery. It will help pass the time away when your'e ready to give it another try.
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Join Date: Jun 2013
Location: New York, NY
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The first time I got sober many years ago, I was so terrified of drinking that, before I went to my first meeting, I was afraid that they would teach people how to drink "normally." I was so relieved in my first meeting that people actually stopped for days at a time. And months and years. That's exactly what I needed. I managed to build a life beyond my hope or expectations in the twenty five years I remained sober prior to my picking up the drink again.
You're not the first person to do what you've described, and now would be a good time to confide in someone you trust who's also in AA.
You're not the first person to do what you've described, and now would be a good time to confide in someone you trust who's also in AA.
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Join Date: Apr 2014
Location: Aberdeen SD
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Controlled drinking is impossible for me. When alcohol hits my brain I want more and can't stop until I pass out. That reaction I can't control. Now that I know this, the only thing I can do to fix it, is to stop drinking alcohol. I went to treatment, dried out, and began practicing an alcohol free life style. I felt like I was paralyzed from the head down and had to learn how to walk in a new life all over again, taking it one step, one day at a time.
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