today this neeeds to stop
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Join Date: Mar 2015
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today this neeeds to stop
today I woke up with the most quilt and anxiety. I feel so upset with myself. Lately i caught myself blacking out every time I drink, so this weekend I figured because I've been noticing how much I've been drinking lately I thought I would have been able to catch myself and cut myself off. I just wasn't able to do it, I just got sloppy drunk on a binge ughh. I came home so hammered I wasn't myself. Alcohol has been a problem for me , which is really sad I'm only 25. I'm glad it hasn't got in the way of my schooling. I do have 7 year old son that does not need a have a mother like that. I'm glad I was able to find this website, I have been trying to stay away from alcohol for a while and just keep giving in . Today I'm done with booze, finding this forum website and reading other stories has given me more inspiration to successful sobriety.
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Welcome, Sandwich!
When I started blacking out towards the end of my drinking days, I kept hoping/believing I could stop before I blacked out. But, I never managed to. Of course, you can't see it coming.
I'm really glad you found us and that you want to live a sober life for yourself and your son.
When I started blacking out towards the end of my drinking days, I kept hoping/believing I could stop before I blacked out. But, I never managed to. Of course, you can't see it coming.
I'm really glad you found us and that you want to live a sober life for yourself and your son.
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Join Date: Dec 2012
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Welcome sandwich, I also drink to blackout stage. I wake up with vague memories and dread. It didn't happen all the time but it's unpredictable. Gotten myself arrested a few times and fought with family, friends, and strangers. I have Attention Deficit Disorder which makes me especially impulsive. You'll find lots of support here
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Join Date: Apr 2007
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Very glad you found us sandwich 
SR helped me turn my life around. I know we can help you do the same
why not check out Class of March support thread?
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-2015-a-4.html
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SR helped me turn my life around. I know we can help you do the same
why not check out Class of March support thread?
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-2015-a-4.html
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Join Date: Mar 2015
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Hi. I know too well the shame and trying not to drink to black out drunk. Can't do it. I have no power over alcohol. Basically drinking means I'm going to do something negative/embarrassing/dangerous. And the scary part is not even remembering.
I also need to be the mom my kids deserve and a hungover mom isn't a good one.
I have no advice yet but the hardest part was throwing that denial away and recognizing my addiction. Yet that recognition means we can do something about it. I wish you luck and we can do this!
I also need to be the mom my kids deserve and a hungover mom isn't a good one.
I have no advice yet but the hardest part was throwing that denial away and recognizing my addiction. Yet that recognition means we can do something about it. I wish you luck and we can do this!
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Good to meet you sandwich. You'll find the support & encouragement you're looking for here.
What I wouldn't give to go back to 25 & make the decision you've made. I kept trying to control myself & it led to 24/7 drinking in middle age. My life should've been so different. You'll never regret this decision.
What I wouldn't give to go back to 25 & make the decision you've made. I kept trying to control myself & it led to 24/7 drinking in middle age. My life should've been so different. You'll never regret this decision.
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