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What made me drink?...well to be honest its the longest I was sober in two years had terrible cravings for days and didnt give in then the day I had a drink I hadnt had cravings but I had another ptsd dream about my ex who beat me and my misscarriage due to his evil soul...I woke up just out of my mind went down the road in a haze and got one mini 5oz bottle and drank it...when I finished I was like wtf did you just do and threw it out...I have had ptsd for two years now and before anyone says anything yes I do see a counselor and meds for help and it has improved alot as I only have it happen every 5 months or so now but thats what triggered my drinking before to "numb" those memorys but I realized all I was doing was letting that memory of loosing my baby and almost my life cripple my sobriety... so that is what happened but I snapped out of it real quick and I dont ever want some ******* person be in control of my choices I have now so I threw it out dusted myself off and am doing ok today
What made me drink?...well to be honest its the longest I was sober in two years had terrible cravings for days and didnt give in then the day I had a drink I hadnt had cravings but I had another ptsd dream about my ex who beat me and my misscarriage due to his evil soul...I woke up just out of my mind went down the road in a haze and got one mini 5oz bottle and drank it...when I finished I was like wtf did you just do and threw it out...I have had ptsd for two years now and before anyone says anything yes I do see a counselor and meds for help and it has improved alot as I only have it happen every 5 months or so now but thats what triggered my drinking before to "numb" those memorys but I realized all I was doing was letting that memory of loosing my baby and almost my life cripple my sobriety... so that is what happened but I snapped out of it real quick and I dont ever want some ******* person be in control of my choices I have now so I threw it out dusted myself off and am doing ok today
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I let the evil in and turned into the pathetic person he told me I was yesturday but today I am me and hes not in control of my sobriety or happyness anymore I think sometimes my brain just takes me back at the worst possible times and im learning to control ptsd and deal with it but it takes some falls
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