justinJustQuit

Over the course of 2014, I learned a lot about my addiction. I learned that it's downright impossible for me to ever be around alcohol and not drink it. People may say I'm not ready, or they may say I'm making excuses. I don't care what they think. I am not doing this to get high or whatever. I'm an addict.

I will die of this. I'm on night one right now, and feeling awful as usual. I hope I can sleep some and feel better tomorrow.

Among other things, I learned that I need this site and AA. I left this site because I felt I had it all under control. As I sit here unable to type correctly because of the shakes, I realize that was a lie.

So I need to get me sober and out of this hell of a life. (Not suicidal, I'm talking about getting rid of the alcohol.) I hope all of you in the community are doing well, and I could certainly use some conversation.

justinJustQuit

Oh and what's going to keep me sober this time: I am doing an IOP program and renewed efforts to stay sober. I will do it this time. I need to do this for myself.

Coldfusion

It's good to see you back, JJQ!

It sounds as if you have a good recovery plan. Well, get to work here and go check in with the "24-Hour Recovery Connections" thread!

Dee74

I'm glad you're trying some different things this time Justin.
The memory of how bad we feel on day 1 just isn't enough for a lot of us.

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justinJustQuit

So is everyone doing ok? It's been a long time since I've been on!

Dee74

all good here Justin - thanks

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malcolmsloan

I remember you Justin. I'm glad you are back around. Night one is a beast but you'll be fine.
onward!
Malcolm

EndGameNYC

Hi Justin.

Glad you're back.

I'm not in an unhealthy relationship...except in my mind, getting dangerously cocky in my work, have friends who call/email/text back, saw The Nutcracker at Lincoln Center on Saturday night, complain about mass transportation in NYC, miss my ex (collateral damage), am in great shape and good health, been reading on average more than one book each month, love spending time with my family, wake up feeling happy to be alive, feed the cat who shows up outside my window every day, stay up late and get up early, drink vanilla-flavored almond milk, green tea, and protein shakes, and sleep like a baby. So I must be doing something right.

Make it work.

ScottFromWI

Welcome back Justin. SR, IOP and AA sounds like a solid plan, best of luck and hope day 1 is not too bad.

Soberwolf

Good luck welcome bk

Nice to meet you

Soberwolf

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anattaboy

Glad you're back Justin.

sugarbear1

Good to see you again!

MelindaFlowers

You can do this. I did not think I could but I did if that offers some hope. I did not think I would ever live without drinking but now I'm pretty darn used to it.

Check in here every day. EVERY DAY! I probably spend around two hours a day on here now. In the first week I probably spent about six hours a day. I clung onto this site desperately.

You can do this.

Life is not only better but EASIER, believe it or not, without drinking alcohol.