Hey A Small Update
Hey A Small Update
Thanks for all the advice and prayers. Things have been quite hard since Debbie passed. It's all so crazy. While I was in Alaska I ran low on hormones I called utah for a refill. They would transfer the script up, but that would be a permanent switch. I couldn't just get the refill I was due. I thought I've been taking these for 9 years. I probably dont even need them. So I went off them. Then I tried to make an appointment with a doctor here. They are scheduled 3 months out. Really. What?? My lack of 'mone symptoms were becoming quite severe. I was soaked with sweat day and night. My last resort was an on-line doctor. They don't take insurance and it is $35.00. Set up on line, pay by credit, select if you want a doctor to call you, text you or Skype you within 30 mins. A doctor called and gave me a 30 day supply of 'mones. Add a large layer of grief. I am doing better with this. Since I have been back on the pills for three days, and had three nights of sleep without drowning in sweat, I feel good. My heart aches but I can function. I have been drinking (not this instant). Two or three a night. I'm trying to sort all this out. I need to think. Everything has changed and the holidays are tough. Im just trying to take it easy. I feel a little lost but I think it is getting better. Love ya' bunches. Pam
Glad to hear you have gotten some relief from your hormonal issues, and it does sound as if you are starting to turn the corner if even a small bit with your grief...you sound better.
The drinking's absolutely got to go though. I used to drink "2 or 3" a night too so I know where that leads....don't sabotage yourself Raider.
The drinking's absolutely got to go though. I used to drink "2 or 3" a night too so I know where that leads....don't sabotage yourself Raider.
Hi Pam, I'm glad you got the hormones under control. That has to be a huge lift. And I know that it seems like you need to get this part of your life in order to stop drinking, but it would be easier to deal with if you're not.
You're in my thoughts.
You're in my thoughts.
I know. I know. Everything seems too much. I have no excuse. I don't care to know why right now? I know where this path leads. Yes I worry about it. I just do not want to deal with it right now.
Yes,raider, grieving through the firsts is not easy. Yer thinkin is that alcohol is helping you deal with it but in reality it isn't. When the alcohol stops, there you are again.
And thinking just drinking through the holiday to deal with it....then THIS holiday will be past,mother it will be NYE. Then the next thing not to deal with. And on and on and on.
Grieving isn't easy. My mother lived with me and I was her caregiver for 12 years until she passed away sept of 2013. It was my duty and a blessing to be able to take care of her that time and it wasn't easy to grieve.
But alcohol surely wasnt Gona help.
I hope and pray you decide you want to deal with starting now. It's not gonna get easier and the drinking could get worse as the alcohol stops working,which it isn't anyways now.
I'm glad you're sounding better emotionally Raider.
I think coming back here regularly could really help you nip any drinking in the bud before it gets too bad again.
Why wait til the backyard grassfire becomes a statewide bushfire?
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I think coming back here regularly could really help you nip any drinking in the bud before it gets too bad again.
Why wait til the backyard grassfire becomes a statewide bushfire?
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