SDH73

Just inches from drinking last night. Had a good productive day, got everything I wanted to do done. The hours between 6 and 11 pm were brutal. AV chattering at me that I was a good boy, I should have some "fun". Just a quick three days, then start over with day 1 on Friday.

I finally grabbed my keys and coat and went out under the guise of "going to get some Thanksgiving groceries", knowing full well that I would also stop by the liquor store.

Bought my groceries, bought a bottle of booze. Got home, weighed drinking and staying up late playing video games in a familiar stupor vs. going to bed, reading and a quick netflix vid. It was a BATTLE!

Put the booze in the cupboard and went to bed to read.

Even laying there with the awesome book that I'm reading I couldn't focus. AV telling me how lame I was and I'll never be good again so I should just embrace it. I was feeling pretty lousy about myself. That didn't work, so AV shifted gears: "You don't have it so bad, you have a job, a couple of friends, a roof over your head. Have a little fun with it..."

Didn't think I'd be able to sleep, but I turned out the light and rolled over to try. Zonked out immediately.

I am relatively certain that I would be extremely hungover right now (and probably drinking vodka for breakfast) if it weren't for SR. All the kind words from kindred souls, inspiring stories, and not least: some sense of accountability outside of myself. Thank you all for that.

Today is not a buildup toward another day 1. It is day 7.

SoberD

Way to win the battle SDH! May want to get that nasty stuff out of your cupboard now!

Soberwolf

Well done on day 7 have you poured the alcohol away

always reach out get that 2nd opinion as Purpleknight and Lbrain mentioned

glad you didnt drink

SDH73

I have not. I know I need to.

Soberwolf

No time like the present do it and feel free doing it

doggonecarl

Hoping to see a post stating you've poured it out.

You do not want that obsession to strike with alcohol just "inches" away.

SDH73

I am doing a couple of TG day stops to see people tomorrow. I thought I could give it away. It's a big bottle of good vodka. Brownie points + getting booze out of my apartment = win/win. As long as they don't crack it open and try to get me to drink with them...
Yeah, maybe I'll pour it out.

Soberwolf

Your not alone were all here for you just pour it away break them chains

sprout50

Good job and just dump the stuff.

PurpleKnight

Day 7 is fantastic!! Keep pushing through!!

soberbrah

I'm stressed out just thinking about that in your cupboard

POUR IT OUT ALREADY

SDH73

Okay, it's gone. Had to sit and stare at the bottle for a while. I was thinking that if you told me that by burning a $100 bill I could earn a chance to make my life just a little bit better I would do it in a heartbeat! Yet I have so much trouble just dumping a $35 bottle of what I know is trouble down the toilet.

Bit of an eye opener. Thanks, guys!

growpath

Awesome SDH!!!

Very proud of you!!!

As a note here, pour that drink out today. AV will come chattering again and take it from someone with experience. It is a tougher battle to shut the beast down when alcohol is readily available!!!

I AM SO PROUD OF YOU!! Look at you, doing the thang HIGH FIVE!

growpath

Oh goodie! I didn't see that last post!!

Very liberating huh!?

Wastinglife

I was never able to pour out booze. If I had a bottle in the house, I drank it. Even when I have stayed at other people's houses, I secretly drank their booze in the middle of the night. I can't be under the same roof with alcohol and the only way I can stay sober is to avoid going near the liquor store in the first place.

Good job in fighting off the AV!

SDH73

Honestly, feel more stressed out about it than anything. If my AV was loud enough to get me to the liquor store last night it could happen again. Not today, though.

I think that maybe yesterday was a trigger for me because it was my last chance this week to get a full 3 day binge going. I work on friday. Hopefully with that 3 day thing out of the question my AV will ease up a bit.

Gilmer

good job resisting, and excellent job pouring it out!

Soberwolf

SD If you get cravings come on here and say it get that 2nd opinion

Keep telling that AV to get outta town dont let the AV own your thinking your not alone you got us you can do this

Dont feel bad or stressed you just done something incredible youl see that soon enough your amazing trust me

If you do get cravings were all here to help 24h a day you can pm me everyday if it helps

hang in there bud you done exellent

SoberComposer

It's good you threw it out. Make it a clean breakup. It's like any bad relationship, the more you think about it, text, or call.. it never works out. Even if you go back out with your liquid date.. you will just waste months/years before you realize it's not going to work out, again...

Clean breaks allow us to move on

SDH73

Thanks, wolf!