Tetra

I feel very down tonight.

I will be 4 months sober on the 12th November.

I am starting my new job on 17th November.

I am trying to start my new life but I find dealing with my family so stressful. I know I have to stand on my own two feet and break free.

I hate feeling like I have to account for myself all the time. Sometimes I stay at my Grandmas and she doesn't seem to like me going out with my friend. Sometimes I stay at my friends house and I have to account for every second of my time.

Sometime I am going to scream "could you all just please leave me alone?"

I blame myself as well, for caring so much about what others think.

Even my mom said "who cares what your Grandmother says? Just say thank you and do what you were planning to do anyway".

I am 34 years old. Life isn't supposed to be this way.

I am sorry for ranting. I just needed to reach out.

ANewDayNYC

I think everyone feels that way sometimes - going for a walk in a park or exercise can sometimes help.

Dee74

I think your new job will be the start of a new independence for you Tetra - hope you feel better tomorrow

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Anna

Tetra, once you get started in your new job, you will have the finances to move out and get your own place. I think you will be much happier then.

least

Take good care of yourself and excel at your new job. After you make enough money you can move into your own place. And if that's too expensive, you can always share the place with a roommate to cut costs.