Soberjoy1

Enough said. I cannot have "just one." When will I learn...NOW!

Hobbers

I have always found that one is never enough, and 3 is too many.

Soberwolf

One is too many a thousand is never enough

FreeOwl

I often thought that maybe if I could JUST keep myself limited to TWO. NEVER MORE THAN TWO!!!

Because if I only have one it never is 'enough' and just frustrates me inside.

And anything past TWO, my ability to moderate at all or make a sound rational decision is gone.

BUT TWO!!!!

Well... the trouble with that is that when I opened the door to two, eventually it seemed entirely rational and reasonable to say "well... JUST THIS ONCE I will go ahead and have 'a few'".

And when THAT didn't end in disaster or a hangover or any negative consequences.... it was all the easier and entirely reasonable to say "Well geeze.... I can surely allow that a couple times a month... no big deal. BUT JUST KEEP IT AT THAT".

And then in between those.... having just TWO or THREE seemed just fine....

And the next thing you know I'm waking up in jail.

Nope - playin' with fire.

biminiblue

FreeOwl BUT TWO!


So. True.

Salgal - Congrats on Day 1!! ??

PurpleKnight

This can be the last time you have to go through it, you can do this!!

ScottFromWI

Sometimes we need daily ( even hourly ) reminders as to why we cannot drink just one. You had mentioned a while back that you went to an AA meeting and liked it - have you continued going?

13unluckyforsom

Totally agree here - this is what has happened to me a few times. I get in this self induced sense of security - which consists of me on a tightrope balancing and wobbling for a but until I eventually face plant lol there is no point to my drinking other than to blackout. That is my purpose when I go buy two bottles of wine and four beer's. If I wanted to have a few I'd buy a few but I can't. I don't ever drink because it tastes nice or anything - I drink for the end result.

Anna

I hope this is the last Day 1 for you.

Soberjoy1

Sorry. I thought this was for posting when we struggled. I definitely did.

13unluckyforsom

It is without a doubt. What happened that made you drink? I hope I didn't offend you by anything I said. I think I'm just trying to lecture myself and if I came across as unsympathetic or anything I didn't mean to. I'm struggling along the same as you.

Soberjoy1

Never mind. I have a lot of emotional stuff to handle... Might go back to AA. I think I need it. See y'all soon.

13unluckyforsom

Don't go...

razor15

I hope you're okay.

Soberjoy1

I think I am sober enough to realize I need more help. Thanks for the support. I will be back.

Change4good

Coming back keeps me sane and sober. Keep at it.

Dee74

I hope you can make this the tuirning point salgal
Staying sober will ultimately help with that 'emotional stuff' too

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Soberjoy1

"It's so easy to forget
The bitter taste the morning left
Swore I wouldn't go back there again"

Kenny Chesney and Grace Potter recorded a great song about the struggle. I am not a huge country fan, but I definitely identify with that lyric.

Simpleman1979

I hope you're doing good Salgal. I know how frustrating the whole durn thing is. Alot of days it's borderline insanity on my part and I can't believe how much control booze has over me. I guess I just mean keep your head up b/c there's alotta other people going through it too and alot that have conquered it. You're doing good, keep it up

Soberjoy1

Thanks, Simpleman1979. Yep, it can feel like insanity sometimes. But as long as I don't drink, I am okay. It is just that simple for me. I have to accept that it's over...never again, I pray. On day 3 and I feel so much better, it's amazing how badly my body hates alcohol these days. My mind is the thing that has given in. Thanks for the support! Hope you are well too.