steve92

Hi, i just came across this site again after being on it in 2011.! Since then my drinking has been just as bad and miserable. Longest i have managed to stay off the drink in the last 17 years is three weeks after going to a few AA meetings, that was almost a year ago.

I've been reading a lot of posts on here and i've been feeling like a lot of people have been feeling before.

I just feel so down and miserable, very low self esteem and feeling of hopelessness. I'm going to give AA another go tomorrow night. I don't know where else to turn to. I've not had a drink for four days now but i've been feeling more depressed than ever.

Something has to give, i can't keep going in this vicious circle of being drunk thursday to sunday then having to work all week feeling so low and putting on a smile and pretending everything is fine. Lots of things i could type but just can't think of them right now, My head just feels fried from drink.

luvmygirls

Welcome, Steve! You're right, we've been there and can totally relate to those feelings. You will find a lot of support and understanding here. Please keep posting.

PurpleKnight

I went round and round in circles for a long time, that same cycle, but at some point we need to get off the merry-go-round of alcoholism, finally say no more!!

Are you doing it on sheer willpower? as until I figured out I needed support, something to get me out of my own mind on that Thurs night, the results didn't change!!

AA is a good idea and here on SR you'll find loads of support!!

Welcome!!

Fly N Buy

Well, quit Steve.
You don't ever have to feel that way again if......
4 days is a good start!

Willingness & Desire are the keys = TODAY!
Ask for help, here and elsewhere.

Few Days back some one started a thread about making a plan....Sounds like starting AA may be a good foundation for your plan! It was for me not long ago.

Glad you're here! Come get some!

peace

Soberwolf

Hi Steve glad your here mate

Wastinglife

Steve, I kept on that cycle far too long. Eventually, I drank every night of the week instead of Thurs-Sun so I was walking into work each morning half-drunk. My job performance plummeted. My outlook on life was miserable. I just wanted to drink.

I ended up unemployed and drinking vodka every waking moment alone in my apartment for close to 2 years.

The pace you are on right now will not end well, I promise you. I lost everything before I finally went to rehab. I had literally only two suitcases of clothes left.

Reach out to someone you trust and of course this site is always here.

Charlie117926

I know how you feel Steve. You are not alone. I have written your exact post several times in the past. I am bound and determined. Congrats on 4 days, you are off to a great start.

ScottFromWI

Welcome back Steve. It was such a relief to finally get off that rollercoaster and start living for me, I hope you can find the same peace. Have a good meeting tonight and don't be a stranger around here, there is tons of support and info.

Anna

Welcome back, Steve!

I'm glad you are doing whatever it takes to get and stay sober.

steve92

Thanks for all the great replies. I have worked out over the years i can't do it alone. I'm really going to try and go to AA tomorrow, i know if i don't i'll just end up drinking over the weekend again for sure.
I just can't imagine myself living without drinking although theres nothing i want more.
I'm going to keep reading here everyday, if i don't i'll just convince myself i don't have a problem and i'll be on the booze again in no time.

Soberwolf

Good luck Steve

Dee74

Welcome back Steve - there's lot of support and good advice here - use us

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