akristinaa27

Ok so where do I begin. I'm just winging it, I've been addicted to Oxys for 5-8 months now. And it started back in December i witnessed at the time my best friends step dad who was like a father figure in my life, commit suicide and life changed since that moment. I've lost my friends due to drugs and I've been beat up on my front lawn by 2 of my best friends and my "second mom". That happened back in July, since then I've been hard into the opiate use.. I sniff them and I do about 120 mg a day. Now I've been to detox and I couldn't do it, I didn't even last a whole day before I called my dad to pick me up. Now this is the bad part.. I have access too these pills everyday at home.. So I know I'll never be without. But I want to quit. I'm breaking out in rashes all over. My feet have blisters my hands my stomach. I'm just not healthy anymore and I need some insight please.. I don't feel like dancing with this devil anymore. I am not an addict this isn't the life for me.

hopeful4

I am so sorry for the loss you have been through. That is hard.

You have to commit to a detox and you need to do this with medical help. Only you can decide how badly you want it and what it's worth to you. Oxys are very addictive and I doubt you can do it on your own, and that is absolutely ok.

Tight hugs. Keep coming back, you are not alone!

PurpleKnight

Welcome to the Forum!!

You can turn this around, take a new path, but best doing things safely with the advice of a Dr!!

You can do this!!

Soberwolf

You started the post saying your addicted and ended the post by saying your not an addict ?

for me i had to accept the cold hard facts i was alcoholic and from there i just started rebuilding my life and it was in complete ruins

i am 14 months sober because i know im an alcoholic it saves me daily by knoiwing that


i done anything i could to get sober

volentary group therapy with court ordered ppl who didnt take it seriously (i did)

london based street team that specialises in alcohol problems

aa, aa book living sober,big book

i volenteeer from time to time at local hospital

i love my sober life

Hevyn

Welcome to SR akristinaa. I hope you'll keep posting. It helps so much to know we're not alone.

akristinaa27

Soberwolf sorry if you didn't understand, I'm just very overwhelmed. I am still an addict I have been since around February .. And I've been in and out of the Drs they don't seem to help me..
I would like to do this on my own I know if I didn't have the pills available to me it wouldn't be an issue ..

akristinaa27

Thanks a bunch! I am definitely going to stick around.. I'm just going to try and keep lowering my dosage as my Dr recommended :/ I hope I can stick it out. As I know once I am sober nothing will change me!

akristinaa27

Thank you, I am going to commit i have been through enough. I want to be sober.. I haven been doing what it takes. I would be going to seek alternative advice about quitting but I live 1hour + from the biggest city I can receive daily help from. Gahh running out of resources so I was hoping I could get some advice or more so some motivation.

akristinaa27

Sorry I didn't mean for it too sound like that I realize I am an addict I just know I didn't have an addictive personality until I tried H
Then after I did H I loved the Oxys where as before I wouldn't even think twice about them..
I am willing to do what it takes to get clean, I realize my life is on the line here. I'm scared and just want to overcome this .

Soberwolf

You will it sounds like your really trying sorry for any mix up

wishing you all the best in staying sober for what its worth i think your going to do it

i can hear it in your voice/post

good luck keep posting

akristinaa27

Thanks again, I am very motivated to get back to my old ways. I'll never look at another O again.
I'm just so emotionally past it, it's wearing my body down.. And I'll keep posting. I would love to keep the motivation going. It helps a lot.

Anna

Hi and Welcome,

You can keep the motivation going and we're here to help you.

akristinaa27

Thanks a bunch. I'm still quiet addicted right now, but i do log how much i do daily. I write in a book or keep track on my phone.
I'm sitting at the 110mg mark for today. It's been a really bad day I'm crawling bad and hot and cold, I am detoxing just focusing on getting my mg lower.
**Note that I mark down what I do from 12am - 12pm .

trachemys

I think everyone is saying you need a real in-hospital detox. One where you can't call someone to come get you. Where you have to stay until you're cleaned out.

akristinaa27

I realize that, but I've tried detox.. It's really my only option I can do. I just don't feel like I can.. I dunno hard to explain. I am going to the dr weekly to keep in check, I'm not sure if hospitals allow people to go in a detox?

Soberwolf

they do

akristinaa27

Ok great news, there is a smaller hospital like 20mins from home. I'll have to call and see what can be done.

trachemys

They will take you in and keep you alive until you are clean. GO.

akristinaa27

I will that's my goal for tomorrow.
Thanks for the advice. Also wonder if I should call and ask before I decide to make the trip?

trachemys

No. Go.