mabellady

Hi everyone

I've just joined a minute ago ... I won't do into the full story now but I'm 35 and been hiding behind a bottle of wine for over 20 years now.its like its part of my DNA and feel like I'm hacking off a part of my personality giving it up.
It's progressively got worse but I'm functioning and hiding behind a happy disposition and make up. I'm knackered... Just so happy I found this x

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trachemys

That little excerpt right there should clear up any doubts for you. You're getting rid of a worsening part of your personality. That's a good thing.

LBrain

welcome mabellady, good decision to start here

least

Welcome to the family. I'm glad you joined us. You'll find lots of support here for getting sober.

SonomaGal

Welcome to SR!

Bubovski

I spent more than double your time hiding behind a pill or a bottle.
Stopping also involves a setting up of new passtimes, situations, and in some cases new friends. Involvement with a non drinking fellowship can help here.
All good wishes!

mabellady

Thanx guys feeling part of a bigger picture helps,I can get so self obsessed and thinking of myself ll the time that never really thought of the effect my functional 5 bottles a week or more was having on my loved ones.
Still haven't quite said the A word out loud , I'm just using my own willpower at the moment but know I need more.....
I have been in rehab for anorexia when I was 11 and dad commit suicide from drinking couple years ago , I had every excuse for my deserving a few wines, on top of antidepressants!
It's a new dawn and really want to be well but it frightens the life out of me!!!

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Anna

It's normal to be frightened at the thought of such a change in lifestyle. I was very scared, but as you said, things get worse unless you stop and I was losing my health and my family, not to mention my self-respect. Have faith that there is life after alcohol and we're here for you.

MIRecovery

Welcome! You don't have to stay sober forever you just have to stay sober today

Aellyce

Hi mabellady, great choice to try to come out of your hiding spot

Look around on this site, read up on the various recovery methods and people's experiences. Then pick some things that resonate with you and experiment!

As for how to think about giving up alcohol - I personally prefer the thought of "forever" as the alternative makes me more anxious than not, but do whatever you feel good about and what inspires you.

All the best

Dee74

Welcome to SR mabellady
glad to have you with us.

Read around and post as much as you like

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Nuudawn

Have you ever had anyone tried to tell you what to do...cause interference with your drinking? Now that person is YOU...you are going to get some push back from your addiction. Buckle up. That's where support comes in. We all understand...boy, do we understand : )

Welcome.

Cowgirlie

Welcome to you! I like your username...
I'm a lady who lives close to Marbella

Wishing you well on your journey and sorry about your dad x

PurpleKnight

Welcome to the Forum mabellady!! Great to have you onboard!!

Hevyn

I'm so glad you joined us mabellady. Now you'll never have to be alone with your struggles - you have people from all over who understand and want to help.

Ren1love

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I love this, welcome to SR. Tons of support here and its a great place to vent

bloss

Glad you are here with us all on our sober journey, don't drink a drop of alcohol today, no matter what. Go easy on yourself and think how wonderful a gift you are giving yourself...

Clementina

Hi mabellady,

I don't know you but I would venture to guess that you are way too good and too beautiful to be hiding behind a bottle of wine! I'm so happy for your decision to quit. It's not an easy path but it does feel better... I haven't gone that far down it but from what I can see, it just keeps getting better and better. Living out of hiding also means we can see, hear, feel more clearly, and anyways life is way too short to be spent hiding in a bunch of toxins that are slowly killing us.

Welcome!!!

Tiptree

Welcome. Glad you found SR! You can make changes if you really want to. It is hard but the rewards are worth it. There is much help and wisdom here to guide you.

tomsteve

welcome!!
I really never understood this whole "functioning alcoholic" or "functioning while drinking",etc thing.seems that people that really are functioning don't hide behind a happy disposition, make up, or many of the other things ive read and heard about it.

onto bigger fish now:
do you want to stop drinking? want to stop feeling the way ya do about yerself?