FaithfulAndFree

I am an alcoholic. Most recently had my "worst drinking day" that resulted in my being escorted home by police and maybe frightening my neighbor. The ultimate price I have paid is complete embarrassment and extreme humiliation. I know the worrying is a part of the recovery, but when i hear other stories I wonder is it too good to be true? I still have my child, home, career etc....sure i lost some respect and probably gained a lot of judgement, mostly the bad kind. I know that i am fully committed to sobriety but i hear so many stories that make me fear i have so much further to fall and honestly I'm terrified.

Tamerua

You can stop it now! You do not have to fall further. What so you want to do? How do you want to tackle this? There are a lot of programs to help you, you just have to start.

Prynne

Everybody has their own struggles and they're as difficult to the individual as anyone else's problems may seem. Things are certainly not "too good to be true" as you've already taken the first step and come to terms with the fact you have an unhealthy relationship with alcohol that has and will hurt you in many different ways. It won't be easy, but there is as much of an "up" to your situation as there is a "down". It's all about staying as strong as you can and fighting to keep the worse days away.

Thatdeliveryguy

EJM824, listen to me, you can do this.... You are going to do this, don't fear the unknown, your are in control you can get on with life and there is a brighter future for you my friend. I've been trying sobriety for many months and relapsed lots of times, but I can tell you this being sober is better. My life is improving and getting better.

HeadLump

I understand your fear, EJM. Even now, I know that I might be only one drink away from disaster. But that is both a weakness and a strength. I know my enemy and I also know that the only one who can make me succumb to that enemy is me. I'd never want to feel complacent, but the longer I walk in my sober shoes, the better they seem to fit Stay close, you'll find lots of support and wisdom here :

GroundhogDay

Plenty of people get sober before they reach a dark place in their life. And even if you relapse (like me), it's better than not trying.

FaithfulAndFree

Thanks everyone, your support and insight is greatly appreciated. I'm going through so many different emotions today.... Crazy enough I am embarrassed about Thursday but excited about each day coming forward. I know that my big bad drinking day may seem like a tragedy to outsiders looking in, but i look at it as a triumph, because it lead me here and it made me
Get serious about a sober life.

HeadLump

Same here, EJM! That bang on my head (in honour of which I'm named ) was one of the best things that has ever happened to me

PurpleKnight

You don't have to fall any further, Sobriety puts on the breaks, it's all in your hands!!

Verte

EJM - my feeling is that it is good enough to know that life can get much, much worse while drinking. Who would wish this on anyone though? Cutting out the booze is life saving and affirming. Good for you!

SoberHoopsFan

Your problem is that you are comparing yourself to others who have alcohol issues. You can always find someone worse or who sunk lower. What you need to ask is whether alcohol is continually causing negative consequences in your life. If so, you should consider quitting for good. I was making 6 digits in a respected profession, kept telling myself I wasn't too bad because of my career. Well that came to a fiery end recently. Drinking is progressive if you keep at it, I found that out the hard way. Better to fix the issue before something more major arises, because it probably will at some point.

Just my 2 cents...

desypete

the idea is that you hear the worse story's and it should give you hope that it hasn't happened to you yet.

yet being the key word

this is where you can change your own destiny, if only i was in your shoes and had a chance to save myself from going to prison or losing my all i would take it with both hands
but i didnt listen to all the warnings as i thought it would never happen to me or that if my drinking ever got that bad i would stop

but its to late when booze has hold of you by the scruff of the neck it will not let you go as daily drinking is were it ends up and ill health will soon follow and all the while you will know there is a problem but can not find a way out as life without a drink is just to much for anyone to give up when your in its grip

so while your not down that road yet then its easy to protect what you have
dont let this illness destroy you or your family or anything else
for me the answers are in aa when i went to aa i had nothing left but a long path of destruction
been around a while now and my path looks good and clean with a few uphill battles along the way but thats just life
i dont drink and i have a new life i have my kids back i have a home i have a job
and this time i want to keep it for as long as i walk this planet
if i pick up a drink well i know what will happen to me i will lose it all again and end up back in the gutter

so you have that on your side, you dont have to go all the way down to the gutter before you can do somthing

FaithfulAndFree

This is all meaningful information. I feel so blessed to have stumbled across this site. I genuinely feel like it will save my life.

sobercalmwishes

you don't have to lose everything to "want it". I didn't. I've never wanted anything so bad in my life and nothing outwardly bad has happened to me yet. You can want this, don't listen to the lies that you have to go far down. That is a small percentage of people. Here on SR you can see that. Plenty of people here because they want to be, not because it's court ordered. You can make your own destiny! Don't believe you have to fall harder. You don't.