Raider

Last night was horrible. Sweats, cold, sweats, cold. Feel like someone punched me in the head. Look like crap, hair all willwonka from sweat. I wake up, open my eyes. Husband comes in. I say can you get me a glass of ice. He happily did that. I get up, get a vanilla latte and pour over ice. He is all chipper....looking all rested and pretty...wanted to punch him in the lip.... Called Mom and cried instead. My husband is a very very quite person. I say to husband, is it better when I don't drink. He doesn't want to answer, I press on. Well??? He tells me I am a mean drunk. . He says I drink, skip the happy stage, get drunk and get mean. . No one has ever said that. I'm glad he told me. Painful but helpful. Taking a shower and going into Olympia today. Feeling confident about a sober today. Prayers!!!

alphaomega

Prayers going up now.

XO AO

PurpleKnight

Keep it going!!

SoberLeigh

Yep, prayers headed up.

Victoriarose

Congratulations, me also day 2, much the same sweats, headache, yucky. Hang in their we will make it. stay sober.

bigsombrero

Great to hear the news, Raider. Congratulations!

KAD

Great job making it through the first day. You know, I really don't know you, but somehow I gathered you might be a bit feisty when you drink. Didn't surprise me to hear that that's the case.

Jupiters

yay Raider! that is great.....well not what your hubby said. But sometimes I think as much as hurts and sucks, we need to hear those things. At least I did.
My BF basically said the same thing to me, I'm a horrible drunk. There is nothing fun about me once I cross that line.
In fact he bluntly told me after my last binge that I'm lucky I'm such a nice, sweet person sober b/c if I wasn't, he'd have gone a long time ago.

I don't know what happens to us when we put the booze in...but it stopped being fun many many years ago and the poor saps around us, who care, seem to get the brunt of it.


*hugs*
Have a lovely, SOBER day in Olympia!

HeadLump

Well done, Raider

My partner told me that watching me drink had put him right off alcohol! It hurt ... but it helped

OpioPhobe

Raider - during my last withdrawal my wife took the liberties of video taping a few snips. It is honestly so embarrassing for me to watch it hurts. I was wimpering and writhing in pain like a toddler. However, I still have it on my phone as a vivid reminder of the consequences. My memory may fade, but I can always press play to refresh it. It may seem extreme, but maybe your hubby could do the same for you. Journaling and all that helps, but a video makes it 'real'. Also, it helped me relate to how my using was impacting those around me.

Congrats on Day 1!

Raider

I didn't know I was such a bitch. I was unkind. I don't like thinking I was unkind. It must have been a bit difficult for him the last 15 years, at times. Well a lot of the time. If someone was unkind to me, I'd be up in your grill in a hot second. Well it's chilly and windy. A perfect day for a nice lunch and outing. I love ya' bunches.

Raider

PS I get amends now......

Jupiters

lol @ "up in your grill in a hot second"

KAD

Spoken like a true feisty woman!

lunar

Prayers on the way.

Demon alcohol is a s.o.b.

Jupiters

I'm imagining it with a full-on circle snap alllll up in yo face.

Jupiters

the demon turns me into a demon.
wretched feeling.

Nuudawn

I thought I posted here..but I guess I didn't. I had to put more info on my profile earlier to proceed (new spam avoidance tactics I presume).

Raider...Pam...I am so very, very happy that you are back in the land of the living..the real, honest and courageous...living.

My heart is full to burstin' just knowing you are my neighbor is Soberville. Yaaaay!!

ReadyAtLast

Thinking of you Pam.Congrats on day 1

least

Hang on. It will get better.