Do you think you know best?
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For me..the real, vulnerable...real deal me...well, she is a bit wise but her voice has been smothered and drowned mostly. She has piped up her warnings often...but I didn't trust her. I trusted that "other voice"...the one that spoke up against her..the one leaning up against a Harley, smoking a cigarette in a black leather jacket. Ya..I listened to that one...lots. That's the miserable bully I gotta stand up to...and his sister, the hot chick in the sexy red dress.
It's the plain jane bespectacled one I gotta listen to.
(Okay..seriously folks...I'm not Sybil...and yes, you gotta be old to get that one)
It's the plain jane bespectacled one I gotta listen to.
(Okay..seriously folks...I'm not Sybil...and yes, you gotta be old to get that one)
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I would have to say I was heavily influenced by extrinsic motivations and factors (e.g. upbringing and their perceived motivations/values) rather than intrinsic ones..and I would say that was because I didn't like or perhaps fully accept who I was within.
I used to think that "surrender" was a bad word. Until I finally realized that it could actually save my life.
I've been a fighter and a control-freak for 46 years and my life has been filled with anger and chaos. It's only when I finally surrendered my will over to the care of my higher power that I have truly felt at peace. I understand the word serenity now. My life is much simpler (not easier, just simpler) since I stopped trying to run the show. I no longer take on everyone else's "stuff" and try to fix everything. I do not try to impose my will on the world around me.
So, yes, I have surrendered ... gratefully!
I've been a fighter and a control-freak for 46 years and my life has been filled with anger and chaos. It's only when I finally surrendered my will over to the care of my higher power that I have truly felt at peace. I understand the word serenity now. My life is much simpler (not easier, just simpler) since I stopped trying to run the show. I no longer take on everyone else's "stuff" and try to fix everything. I do not try to impose my will on the world around me.
So, yes, I have surrendered ... gratefully!
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It's probably not very popular in addiction recovery (especially in AA), but yeah I do think I know best. I always say I know what I *need* to be doing, I just tend to not do it with my addiction. But I believe strongly in self-empowerment, willpower, and all that good stuff. I'm a guy, but one of the things that has spoken to me the most is the Women for Sobriety "13 Affirmations" (womenforsobriety.org/beta2/new-life-program/13-affirmations/).
This doesn't mean I should recover in isolation, or that I don't need to talk to other people about it, but at the end of the day I understand myself and behaviors better than anyone and trust myself to do what's right and deal with it effectively if I make a mistake.
This doesn't mean I should recover in isolation, or that I don't need to talk to other people about it, but at the end of the day I understand myself and behaviors better than anyone and trust myself to do what's right and deal with it effectively if I make a mistake.
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What my gut instinct suggests and what I do are not always the same. I do trust my gut instinct, yes. But my instinct isn't what caused me to drink. I knew that drinking was a bad idea all along. And when I say gut instinct, I mean conscience and "spirit" as well. Gut instinct, for me, doesn't mean the same as lizard or lower brain, or survival instinct. It's my "lizard brain" that wanted to drink. I probably view my gut instinct the same way a Christian views her spirit or connection with a personal God.
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What my gut instinct suggests and what I do are not always the same. I do trust my gut instinct, yes. But my instinct isn't what caused me to drink. I knew that drinking was a bad idea all along. And when I say gut instinct, I mean conscience and "spirit" as well. Gut instinct, for me, doesn't mean the same as lizard or lower brain. It's my "lizard brain" that wanted to drink. I probably view my gut instinct the same way a Christian views her spirit or connection with a personal God.
I feel that the decisions I need to make in my life are best made as a combination of my personal experience and the experience of others. I feel that I do know what is best most of the time, but that knowledge came to me from many different places - my upbringing, my schooling, my daily experiences with others, etc.
I feel it's also very important to realize your limitations. Asking for help in making a decision can be construed as a weakness by some, but I view it as a strength.
I feel it's also very important to realize your limitations. Asking for help in making a decision can be construed as a weakness by some, but I view it as a strength.
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I'm a firm belier in people thinking for themselves and not following along with something because they're told to do it, by another who thinks they know you better than yourself. That becomes arrogance on the other person's part in many cases, thinking they know you better than you know yourself.
And anyways, you still have to use your own judgment when deciding who you will listen to, as everyone who's sober won't tell you to do the same things. An alcoholic can think clearly when they're sober and on some deep level, beneath the rationalizing and denial, does usually know best what they need to do but isn't doing it.
And anyways, you still have to use your own judgment when deciding who you will listen to, as everyone who's sober won't tell you to do the same things. An alcoholic can think clearly when they're sober and on some deep level, beneath the rationalizing and denial, does usually know best what they need to do but isn't doing it.
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With respect to "gut instinct"...
When I dragged my sorry self to AA in a sobriety long ago and far away...I was pretty messed up...weak and vulnerable. I was so desperate for help, love and kindness...
At the end of my second meeting, a man came up and asked me out for coffee. At first...I was so grateful that someone sought me out...wanted to help me out..was going to show me the ropes, give me some AA advice yadda yadda yadda...
I will NEVER forget that night... how I felt in that dark parking lot...just so damn tickled that someone in that big ole meeting ..saw me...saw I was hurting and scared.
I was about to take him up on it....BUT something said ''Ya ..no...don't do it...something is funky here...not a good idea".
Ya I learned bout him..and something called "13 stepping" a few meetings later.
(Sorry this in not meant to dis AA....just wanted to say..sometimes..
YOU are all you've got)
When I dragged my sorry self to AA in a sobriety long ago and far away...I was pretty messed up...weak and vulnerable. I was so desperate for help, love and kindness...
At the end of my second meeting, a man came up and asked me out for coffee. At first...I was so grateful that someone sought me out...wanted to help me out..was going to show me the ropes, give me some AA advice yadda yadda yadda...
I will NEVER forget that night... how I felt in that dark parking lot...just so damn tickled that someone in that big ole meeting ..saw me...saw I was hurting and scared.
I was about to take him up on it....BUT something said ''Ya ..no...don't do it...something is funky here...not a good idea".
Ya I learned bout him..and something called "13 stepping" a few meetings later.
(Sorry this in not meant to dis AA....just wanted to say..sometimes..
YOU are all you've got)
Thanks guys! What an interesting lot of opinions, as always. I suffer from anxiety and sometimes imagine dangers that aren't there. I don't trust my instincts because of that.
I am learning now to let go of things a bit. Control freakery is exhausting. If I could just feel connected instead of oddly spaced out all the time I would be grateful.
I am learning now to let go of things a bit. Control freakery is exhausting. If I could just feel connected instead of oddly spaced out all the time I would be grateful.
When I first sought out help and support I signed up to SR, I didn't know best about anything, I was seeking a lifeline, someone to give me some advice on what to do, I think also just someone to tell me and reassure me it could be done, sometimes I go back and read those first comments on my first thread.
Sober, I have started to trust myself, but I think it's important to still be open to other viewpoints and opinions!!
We can't know everything, all the time . . . unless of course your Dee, that guy knows some stuff!!
Sober, I have started to trust myself, but I think it's important to still be open to other viewpoints and opinions!!
We can't know everything, all the time . . . unless of course your Dee, that guy knows some stuff!!
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Originally Posted by GwenCummings
Thanks guys! What an interesting lot of opinions, as always. I suffer from anxiety and sometimes imagine dangers that aren't there. I don't trust my instincts because of that.
I am learning now to let go of things a bit. Control freakery is exhausting. If I could just feel connected instead of oddly spaced out all the time I would be grateful.
I am learning now to let go of things a bit. Control freakery is exhausting. If I could just feel connected instead of oddly spaced out all the time I would be grateful.
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