Tripped, fell, getting back up again
Tripped, fell, getting back up again
Another relapse, another lesson.
I didn't expect all this anger during the last couple of weeks. I wasn't prepared to deal with it. I still don't know how to deal with it.
I suspect that taking anxiety medication, and chain smoking had something to do with it. I am just completely unable to relax. Anger, anxiety, fear...all day long. Until I gave in and had a few drinks.
Of course it didn't help.
I guess being sober is not just grinding your teeth and clenching your fists until the cravings disappear....it's about life changes. To learn how to deal with emotions in a healthy way.
I am still struggling to figure that out...
I didn't expect all this anger during the last couple of weeks. I wasn't prepared to deal with it. I still don't know how to deal with it.
I suspect that taking anxiety medication, and chain smoking had something to do with it. I am just completely unable to relax. Anger, anxiety, fear...all day long. Until I gave in and had a few drinks.
Of course it didn't help.
I guess being sober is not just grinding your teeth and clenching your fists until the cravings disappear....it's about life changes. To learn how to deal with emotions in a healthy way.
I am still struggling to figure that out...
Welcome back Patrica. Your statement above pretty much sums it up....the white knuckle approach nearly always fails unfortunately. Have you considered any local support like meetings or counseling to help you deal with the emotions you mention? It can really be beneficial.
There are no AA meetings in my area (I live in a very small town). But I'm seeing a counselor once a month, actually I made an emergency appointment for tomorrow.
Good for you. Don't be afraid to be brutally honest. They've heard it all before and it could be beneficial to get things off your chest.
I've had so many relapses I couldn't begin to count them, so you're not alone there.
Best to you tomorrow and every day.
I've had so many relapses I couldn't begin to count them, so you're not alone there.
Best to you tomorrow and every day.
Sounds like a good plan, hope you can work with your counselor to find some additional support. And don't forget SR is here 24/7!
I think I am terrified of being honest with myself
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