Isaidyesyesyes

I can't stop D, I tried to go cold turkey before and I almost died. Last time i went to detox a nurse told me that I'm showing signs of alcohol withdrawas of someone that has been drinking for longer then I've been alive

Dee74

It's never a good idea to go cold turkey. I stroked out that way.
I could have died.

See a Dr or get into detox - that's the smart way.

D

Spinach

She also didn't tell you to just keep on drinking. Your off work go and see your Dr start doing this properly. Your relationship job and housing right now seem to be a day away from disappearing if this keeps going not sure how safe they are if you don't but it'll be so much better.
John.

LBrain

Like Dee says, people have died from going cold turkey from alcohol abuse. It is FACT.

Also - I didn't want to go here - there is no such thing as a part time alcoholic.

Getting wasted on weekends or every other weekend or month is no different than drinking a bottle or two of wine every night. It will eventually catch up to you. No matter how you get there, you will. Your brain figures it out for you and before you know it...

FreeOwl

re-read that last sentence and let us know when you're ready to get off this hellish merry-go-round to death.

you don't have to do this anymore.

pupkin

Hey Isaidyes. You're not looking for sympathy but I'm so sorry it's got its teeth in you so hard right now. I've been there and know how horrible it is, how frightening it can get, and I appreciate your warning to others. I know it comes from empathy and a good heart and some sense that if you can't help yourself, maybe you can help somebody else.

Really look at Dee's last post, though. And theklown's. This is the soberest stuff you'll read today. I always thought I was a functioning alcoholic on those "regular" days, too, but the truth is I was just maintaining a baseline until the next bender, which was inevitable as rain. And your kind warning to others is a way of stalling. Because the merry-go-round is spinning faster each day and the idea of jumping off is only getting scarier. People talk about "white knuckle sobriety," but right now you're the opposite. You're white-knuckle drinking. And so many of us have been there.

Let go. Fall back on this place. Face the few days of hell ahead, preferably with some help from a doc, and free yourself from this misery. This time next week you can be standing on solid ground, probably still a little dizzy but looking back at the merry-go-round with relief.

I'm wishing you strength. Keep checking in here.

Jupiters

I really hope you made it to a detox and are safe and doing better.