Kys

Bit lost for words at the moment.

I've been going ok, but alcohol still lingers. When it does I'm not drinking heavily (mostly), but I'm drinking habitually and as part of a routine.

A time ago I'd have just considered myself when writing this, but that's definitely changed. My partner is involved now, and I'd be lying if I said I wasn't a bit ashamed of how irresponsible I've been.

There it is in black and white, irresponsible, among a lot more.


Needed to check in for the usual reasons SR...

Stoogy

Hi, glad you are here, so are you tapering down at the moment?

Wishing you well.

ScottFromWI

Welcome back Kys. Do you think quitting might be an option for you? You don't have to keep following the drinking routine if you dont' want to.

Arbor

I can certainly relate to the daily grind of drinking moderately. It can make you feel like a mindless slave. What is your plan for future drinking Kris? This moderation thing seems to be bringing you down.

least

I hope you can stop drinking entirely.

Dee74

Hey Kys
You know this road doesn't lead anywhere good. What are your plans?
Does your partner know you have a problem?

D

Hevyn

Kys, It's so good to see you. Please continue to post - it will help. Remember, you're among people who truly understand.

Kys

Thanks everyone.

Tapering or moderation isn't what I need or want. I've had weeks at a time now without drinking at all, that's a huge leap from where I was even months ago and I'm definitely in a much better place compared to this time last year, or so A few of you here would be familiar with my story - SR and the people here are in my thoughts often. Thinking back to that daily hell is a terrifying.

I should be proud of how far I've come, and I am. I still struggle with the getting caught up in obsessiveness and illogical drinking routines. When I've slipped I get caught up in making excuses for when I'll stop again - a Monday, a day that 'makes sense' because I might as well start again after I attend an event and I'll drink at that, start of the month, a day where I can get a clear run after that etc...

I spoke to my partner today. No surprise for them really that I've had a history with alcohol, as like I said when I'm drinking it's hardly like a person would who can drink responsibly. It wasn't a deep conversation but I'm glad I've acknowledged things and as expected I'm well supported.

Back on track, sober and headed to bed Best to all of you always, and Hevyn I'll stick around

Nonsensical

Welcome back!

Kys

Thanks NS