anewpage

I joined this forum last summer and tried briefly to get sober but soon quit. My life has been a series of ups and downs since then. The longest I have been without alcohol is 10 days. I am looking to get sober but i'm not sure how, because I have social anxiety disorder and I'm bipolar, and alcohol is how I've learned to cope. My family mostly ignores my problems with alcohol. So, here I am.. back again, probably no one remembers me, but here I am.

Raider

I remember you. Welcome my Friend.

curliQ

I've recently come back too! Great to meet you

anykey

I feel for you on the bi polar thing. Anyone I known with that- is hard to treat. Are you on medication for that?

anewpage

Yeah, I am currently on Prozac, Abilify and klonopin. I lied and told my doctor I stopped drinking at Christmas. (Well, I did, briefly. I just didn't admit it when I began drinking again). I just have such awful social anxiety and most of the time, without alcohol, I can't even leave the house. I also deal with self harm issues.
Any help from people here would be HUGELY appreciated. I'm at the end of my rope.

curliQ

Have you had a thorough investigation of your symptoms by a psychiatrist? Many times we are diagnosed off the cuff because of symptoms only to find that something else is causing the anxiety.

anewpage

no, I haven't seen a psychiatrist recently. just my medical doctor.

curliQ

Not sure where in the world you are, but I think that with the diagnoses you've been given, it would be most beneficial to you find out exactly what needs treated.

anewpage

I'm in the US

curliQ

It might be worth your while to check it out. Hope you are doing okay right now.

anewpage

I'm pretty drunk right now tbh and feeling not the greatest. I don't want to drink anymore. I am so done living this awful life.

curliQ

It can be better. Start now. You are worth it.

Verte

Strongly echo curliQ's sentiments and advice.

Find a great psychiatrist in your area (word of mouth, Angie's List reviews). Ask to be monitored closely (frequently) if it is not suggested by them already.

Set your brain chemistry up for success: being able to discuss what is working/not working and at what times of the day is key with brain meds. Sometimes a little tweak is all that's needed.

Welcome back! I am new here...day4 (almost 5) no alcohol. Look forward to reading more from you

**not intended to be 'medical advice' as that is against the rules...just what I would suggest if you were my brother or sister. Obviously call your Doc is another suggestion I forgot.

simplenoteasy

Welcome back anewpage!! I started again too. You/we can get better. Stay positive

Jenners

I am returning here after a long hiatus as well. Let's do this! I believe that life is better sober. I hate waking up disappointed in myself every morning.

animalnurse9

Hey welcome back, I've been away too I know that the medication in on for clinical depression doesn't work if I drink alcohol as they counteract each other. Not sure if its the same for you?

anewpage

Thanks everyone for your kind words. I'm going to stick around here and hopefully gain some strength from others.

anewpage

I just finished the last of the alcohol in my house and I'm determined to not buy any more (and not allow my husband to buy any more either). This addiction is ruining my life and I just can't let it go on. Tomorrow will be day 1, wish me luck and pray for me.

BHappy2014

You can do it. I'm on Day 1 again myself. Just threw away all my empty wine bottles and praying..hard. I don't want anymore regrets. My brain hurts!

ScottFromWI

I do wish you luck newpage. Do you have a plan in mind for how you'll stay sober tomorrow?