I'm so grateful I'm sober.
Its a cold and its a broken hallelujah.
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The anesthesiologist asked me if I had any questions since I had never had anesthesia before. I asked him how coming out of it would feel. His reply was "a lot like a hangover - not too bad really".
I started to shake.
My last hangover resulted in vomiting bile out of my nose while simultaneously urinating on myself, myoclonic jerks , BP of 160/95 a heart rate of 104 , diarrhea with yellow slime from a failing pancreas, constant persistent overwhelming nausea, shaking , chills, ringing in my ears, numbness and tingling all over my body, bruises , welts, and a general feeling of End of Days and constant impending doom.
I was terrified.
Turns out an alcoholics definition of a "hangover " is radically different than a non alcoholics.
Coming out of anesthesia was an absolute CAKE WALK in comparison to a hangover induced by two bottles of Chardonnay followed by a couple shots of whatever hard was close by.
How jaded we are. And how damn strong. To be able to survive those .
****{shudder}}}
I started to shake.
My last hangover resulted in vomiting bile out of my nose while simultaneously urinating on myself, myoclonic jerks , BP of 160/95 a heart rate of 104 , diarrhea with yellow slime from a failing pancreas, constant persistent overwhelming nausea, shaking , chills, ringing in my ears, numbness and tingling all over my body, bruises , welts, and a general feeling of End of Days and constant impending doom.
I was terrified.
Turns out an alcoholics definition of a "hangover " is radically different than a non alcoholics.
Coming out of anesthesia was an absolute CAKE WALK in comparison to a hangover induced by two bottles of Chardonnay followed by a couple shots of whatever hard was close by.
How jaded we are. And how damn strong. To be able to survive those .
****{shudder}}}
Its a cold and its a broken hallelujah.
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Join Date: Aug 2011
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Something to be said for "clean living".
Went to a post op appt today. After Dr. finished examining me she said "Wow, you are really ahead of the curve again considering you are only 6 weeks post op".
I said , "Ummmmm, I'm only *2* weeks post op".
She proceeded to argue with me.
"What ? No. Wait. Really ? No. Hold on. Let me grab your chart. Oh. Ummmmm. Whoa. You have lost 15 lbs in addition to this amazing healing of your incision ? What the hell are you doing ?"
I got a Cheshire grin on my big fat face and got to say....
"Well, I don't drink. Don't smoke. No caffeine and Eat healthy. I do two meditations per day. Pre op I did a pre op meditation that prepared my body for surgery. Post op, I found a healing meditation that accelerates cell regeneration . I walk short distances 3-5 times a day to build my stamina. I journal and rest. And I visit with friends."
And I pray. A lot. I believe in Divine Intervention. And I have begun to trust the Process.
Really trust it.
Just two months ago, I threw my hands up in the air and begged Jesus to take the wheel because my level of desperation was beyond words.
And here I am.
I'm gonna rock what left of this beautiful life.
So help me.
XO AO
Went to a post op appt today. After Dr. finished examining me she said "Wow, you are really ahead of the curve again considering you are only 6 weeks post op".
I said , "Ummmmm, I'm only *2* weeks post op".
She proceeded to argue with me.
"What ? No. Wait. Really ? No. Hold on. Let me grab your chart. Oh. Ummmmm. Whoa. You have lost 15 lbs in addition to this amazing healing of your incision ? What the hell are you doing ?"
I got a Cheshire grin on my big fat face and got to say....
"Well, I don't drink. Don't smoke. No caffeine and Eat healthy. I do two meditations per day. Pre op I did a pre op meditation that prepared my body for surgery. Post op, I found a healing meditation that accelerates cell regeneration . I walk short distances 3-5 times a day to build my stamina. I journal and rest. And I visit with friends."
And I pray. A lot. I believe in Divine Intervention. And I have begun to trust the Process.
Really trust it.
Just two months ago, I threw my hands up in the air and begged Jesus to take the wheel because my level of desperation was beyond words.
And here I am.
I'm gonna rock what left of this beautiful life.
So help me.
XO AO
you sound wonderful love xxx
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