Loekken

I am what, 7 weeks in now? I have this, I can't wait until I have another drink, I am telling myself I can drink in moderation again soon... Although history has proven me wong again and again.

Mostly it is the sensation that it is unfair I cannot drink when others can. I feel so normal when I am sober

Have to stay sober now though for a number of reasons, but I feel I will definitely pick up the bottle down the line, with whatever consequences... I don't really care atm.

Dee74

Maybe that lack of self care is part of a wider issue Starlight?

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nomis

Well spotted Dee. I'm 3 years sober, and still find myself being angry all the time at work. Before I blamed that on my drinking, then my divorce, then my colleagues, etc... About time I stop using excuses and look in the mirror.

kzaug2014

Hi Starlight,
Is there something happening in your life right now to make you feel this way? Or, is it like Dee said, wider issues? Or both perhaps?

Dee74

I think a lot of us have had to move beyond the just not drinking thing to be happy Starlight. It's a long journey but incredibly worthwhile IMO.

We're here for you - wishing you the best

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Loekken

Not sure to be honest. Well there are a lot of things happening for sure, divorce being a major thing. But I always felt angry and alienated, with or without the booze.

So yes, there are 'wider issues' ... drinking seems to make the world alright, momentarily at least. But it's nice to be sober, it's not that. Life just gets bland. I am at a point where something needs to happen in my life, some big shifts, something new... it takes time, I know.

Patience was never a friend of mine either

Dee74

Life was bland for me when I quit because I was still trying the live the same drinking life I was used to...just without booze.

Embracing change was pretty vital for me in building a sober life I loved.

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