Gakx

Last night, I ruined my sobriety. I am devastated by it. I had a plan but it got derailed by a turn of events and then I became overwhelmed with stress. Next thing I know, I had lost control and went off the deep end.

I have been paying the price all day. It has been a good reminder of what I don't want my life to be again.

So, here I am on day one. I need to come up with a better plan of action for times of high stress like yesterday. I am embarrassed and feel defeated.

Dee74

The important thing is you're back - and you realise you need to do a little more work.

Those are both good things to be going on with gakx

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jakec

My sponsor always says, the beautiful thing about recovery is that we can start over when we need to. Don't beat yourself up. Yeah, it happened, but today is a new day and all we have is today when it comes to sobriety. Keep it in the moment.

I'm rootin' for you!

Aarryckha

This.

Hang in there!

LadyinBC

Do not let your AV trick you with these feelings. These are the ones that keep us struggling and keep us thinking negatively. As long as we feel defeated we will be defeated.

Learn from what happened and come up with a plan you can use so when something like this happens so you don't give into it. You don't have to let there be a next time. We are in control of our destiny not our AV's.

Don't get on the pity pot and don't ever feel embarrassed. I would hate for anyone to think that they shouldn't post because of it. We all make mistakes along the way the important thing is did we learn anything from it?

FeelingGreat

Hi Gakx, can you rewrite last night in your head and work out what you could have done instead of drinking? How could you have seen the 'turn of events' differently?
Not preaching; believe me I need a few clues to handle stress myself, but for some reason it doesn't include the bottle.

Odelle

I'm sorry Gakx, I've been there, done that before and know the immense sense of disappointment. You - 49, AV - 1, don't it score again!

FreeOwl

And there you go...... take this reminder and this evidence. Use it to strengthen your resolve and allow it to open your willingness to try new tools in your sobriety.

You can do it.

IOAA2

When I first got sober there were strong suggestions on ways to stay sober. We were encouraged to go to a lot of meetings, stay away from our drinking "friends," have a list of sober friends and call them, stay away from slippery places like bars, package stores etc. It was implanted in my brain " if I don't pick up the first drink I won't have to get sober AGAIN."
KEEP COMING.

BE WELL

least

Learn from it so you don't do it again.