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I'm new!
I am new to sober recovery. The love of my life showed me this site. It is an amazing place. A lot of good reads. Lots of support. So hello to all . I am seeking a sober lifestyle and this seems like a good place to share all the emotions I have buried inside. Sharing at meetings is hard for me but I'll share everything on my mind here. I did use today. I feel a lot of guilt. But I'm moving forward in the right direction. Need to start making some better decesions and get my life started. I have big plans for my future and that starts with me getting help staying clean. So everyone will be hearing from me an awful lot. Thanks. Have a good day
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I jist hope I'm not alone with all the crazy homicidal suicidal thoughts that come to me from time to time. I hope everyone doesnt think I'm crazy. Its what I do with my thoughts that counts and not acting on them!
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A car accident was my bottom. And very shortly after that I overdosed. Heart stopped several times. Was a scary experience. But I'm happy that it happened so I can atleast attempt to step onto the other side. I want nothing more than to live clean. I will work at it. I will never quit quitting til it does stick. And learn a new way to live. Many changes to be made and am willling to make them. I do need to get back into meetings and I do need to find another sponsor.
Sobriety is Traditional
Join Date: Dec 2012
Location: Orcas Island, Washington
Posts: 9,067
Here's a recent thread I recommend:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...pbox-time.html
Also, there's lots of threads where you can post whatever you want, but this is the one I like. Please don't take it personally that I am recommending this thread...
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ed-whines.html
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...pbox-time.html
Also, there's lots of threads where you can post whatever you want, but this is the one I like. Please don't take it personally that I am recommending this thread...
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ed-whines.html
Lover of the Light
Join Date: Oct 2013
Location: Ontario, Canada
Posts: 159
Welcome to SR Live! It is an amazing place full of wonderful people and support. The best part is most all of us have been where you are. I am. I also used today and am drowning in guilt. So you are not alone. Together we can do this!
It's good to have you with us. You'll find a lot of love and understanding on this site 
bona fido dog-lover
Join Date: Mar 2008
Location: SF Bay area, CA
Posts: 99,784
Welcome to SR! You've come to a very friendly and supportive site. When I was early in recovery I used to come here and post instead of drinking. There is always someone here, day or night.
I'm glad you joined us.
I'm glad you joined us.
AlmA
Join Date: Sep 2013
Location: Marbella Spain
Posts: 714
Dear Live444Today,
Welcome to SR
I used to get really strong nasty thoughts...
I did not have enough serotonin,
and the head drove me crazy since I got up was I want HELL ON HEARTH!
and I am medicated now... and I am great now my head is quiet.
If you have many suicidal thoughts maybe you need to go to a psychiatrist!
it took a while to find the right medication...
but when he did my head stopped the thoughts.
Was so amazed it stopped!!!
But still have to stop using.... or your head will get worse...
Best wishes in your Recovery!!!
Welcome to SR
I used to get really strong nasty thoughts...
I did not have enough serotonin,
and the head drove me crazy since I got up was I want HELL ON HEARTH!
and I am medicated now... and I am great now my head is quiet.
If you have many suicidal thoughts maybe you need to go to a psychiatrist!
it took a while to find the right medication...
but when he did my head stopped the thoughts.
Was so amazed it stopped!!!
But still have to stop using.... or your head will get worse...
Best wishes in your Recovery!!!
to SR
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Thanks everybody. sR is a very welcoming place. Tomorrow is day 1. Staying clean is just so hard. Using takes all the bad thoights awy and the depression goes with it. I can live sober. Just need to seek proper help and move past this relapse
AlmA
Join Date: Sep 2013
Location: Marbella Spain
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It only takes the depresion and the thoughts whilst ur gone!!!
But you have to live in the real world!
We can not be stone forever...
And u will feel worse and worse!
And will want to take more!
Until somthing bad happens...
Ur used to live with crutches!
Have to learn to walk on ur own!
It is amazing when ur a time clean...
U can face dificulties much easier!
U need to get to a doc if u got a bad depression!
There is another way of living do not miss it!
But u have to start somewhere!
BE TOMORROW!
But you have to live in the real world!
We can not be stone forever...
And u will feel worse and worse!
And will want to take more!
Until somthing bad happens...
Ur used to live with crutches!
Have to learn to walk on ur own!
It is amazing when ur a time clean...
U can face dificulties much easier!
U need to get to a doc if u got a bad depression!
There is another way of living do not miss it!
But u have to start somewhere!
BE TOMORROW!
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