MightyFlea21

Was reading a fictional story last night where a father of three dies in his forties leaving his wife alone with their three kids. This totally freaked me out. I'm 39 with one small child and a second on the way and I don't want to die without seeing them grow up. So I made a pact with the universe that I will stop killing myself with booze if the universe will help me see my kids grow. I feel silly typing it as I have never been a spiritual type but its a pact I plan to keep. I'm only on day 2 but I have never felt more determined. Will I slip again? I don't know but I DO know I will fight harder than ever to keep myself from killing my body. I will watch and experience my kids growing up and be there for them. Just wanted to share with the awesome set of people who provide support on this site.

RachelNorth

Sounds like a good pact to me. You will enjoy your children so much more as well as living longer. Keep up the good work.

cleaninLI

Mightyflea thanks for posting that. I have the same fear too. My own father died of alcoholism at age 50. He left behind four of us kids. I don't want to do the same thing.
Good luck I think you have a very good reason to live!

brazilian

it's a fair deal

nice going, friend

stop drinking for your life's sake

my father would be alive if he had stoped

least

I'm glad you're feeling so determined to stay sober.

Agricola

What is your plan for Sobriety?

My problem was (once I made the self discovery that I was an alcoholic) never stopping. My problem was always 'staying stopped'. Merely putting away the bottle didn't correct the things that had driven me to drink in the first place. When a situation would come around that, in my mind, gave me 'permission' to drink, I'd pick back up for who knows how long. Alone, without changing myself, I could not stay stopped.

tootsl1

MightyFlea, I wanted to live to see my grandson grow. I also didn't want him to remember seeing me drunk. You will get plenty of support and advice here, have you checked out the Class of March 2014, where others quitting this month are helping each other through the early days? If your sobriety is so important, check out all avenues. I wish you well my friend

MightyFlea21

Can I join the march club if I already drank in March?

What is my plan? Right now it's determination, posting here a ton and reading which recovery option could work for me. Is it possible to achieve sobriety with that plan or do I have to attend meetings?

Agricola

Only you can answer that.

For me, I could not stay sober without AA. There may be some other solution that works for you. If you have never attended an AA meeting, I suggest you try it. They're free. (Newcomers are usually discouraged from even contributing the standard "dollar in the basket").

MY only cautionary word is that whatever you're going to do, don't spend too long figuring it out, or you're likely to pick up before making a decision.

Coldfusion

I use meetings, but there are many who go with just a plan. Check out the discussions of AVRT in the Secular Recovery section of this forum. I recommend the AVRT crash course--it may be enough to keep you sober forever.

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...r-connections/

Also, you are welcome to join the March thread.

whiskeyman

and when that voice in you head starts going , call out to that UNIVERSE and ask for answers

tootsl1

Of course you can sweetie! You can even come visit us in the March 13 class if you want!! Also there is the Year and Under thread where there is a wealth of experience from failed attempts to happy successes and continual support in both.
I personally never went the AA route, but I certainly wouldn't knock it, do what works, try everything and anything. Come see us in the Undies, door is always open, and the kettle is always whistling x