Physical Evidence
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Physical Evidence
I don't remember falling. But when I woke up to a huge bruise on my leg and a feeling like someone had punched me in the back, I knew something had happened. My husband told me the next morning that I had taken a bad spill before he put me in my pjs and poured me into bed. That was Friday night. Then Sunday, another black out. I was done (hopefully for good). Day three is hard. My inner voice is saying, you did good you can have a glass of wne tonight, you won't do that again, you learned your lesson. NO! I can do this.
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Don't give in to that voice. I think the same thing. I haven't drank in a bit, I can drink soon, right? A three day gap is good, right? No. Because I know that once I start up again, the cycle will repeat itself. Stay strong. You don't deserve a glass of wine, you deserve a healthy life.
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That nasty little voice
I HEAR IT,TOO! It is what leads me into a downward spiral. I think "I had a hard day or I could go for a cold drink" and the next thing I do is head for the liquor department. Then I start drinking for the next 3 days til I feel guilty and get sick. Then spend the next week detoxing and trying to remember what I did for those drunken days. All because of a stupid voice that has no concern for my health and well-being. We have to recognize it is destroying us and tell it to go away. Only good thoughts can stay. Stay strong and good luck.
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Congrats on day 3 Jill. You know that voice lies. You can do this. Your post made me remember all the unexplained bruises I used to get. Mostly on my legs below the knees. Must have been bumping into this while cooking drunk.
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Do you know how good it feels when you NEVER have to wonder where the bruise or aches came from? Where you don't have to feel humiliated because someone helped you when you were drunk and you can't remember any of it? Where you don't have to cringe when you try to think of what you said or might have said? It feels fantastic! You're off to a good start-reward yourself with something else besides booze!
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Originally Posted by FreeFall 
Do you know how good it feels when you NEVER have to wonder where the bruise or aches came from? Where you don't have to feel humiliated because someone helped you when you were drunk and you can't remember any of it? Where you don't have to cringe when you try to think of what you said or might have said? It feels fantastic! You're off to a good start-reward yourself with something else besides booze!
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There was so much of my drinking that was a mystery to me too....the bruises, the conversations, the sex, the placement of my wallet, purse, keys, or the car itself.....I wake up in the morning now and don't have to check out my body to make sure I'm ok and I don't have to throw the curtain back to see if the car made it home with me. Life is good on this side of sober....hope you stay here too 
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Originally Posted by Jill23
My inner voice is saying, you did good you can have a glass of wne tonight, you won't do that again, you learned your lesson.
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I can do this.
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I remember my other half's grandson telling me the next day when I asked him why my hand was so sore, oh must have been that 3" nail you shot through your hand while you were looking where your beer was so you didn't knock it over! Had no recollection of doing it, nor him turning all sorts of colors and getting sick when he said I jerked it out and put some tape on it. Boy that was good beer, so were the other 12-15 my wallet told me I had when it got empty! Stay Strong and Well!
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Hi Jill, another thing to remember about that voice: The second you take the first sip, poof, the voice is gone, and so are we. That voice paints a nice pretty picture for us with phrases like, "enjoy a drink," "a nice drink," "deserve a drink," "need to relax" and so on: All just subterfuge, all false, all lies. Where are these phrases the next morning, heck, where are these phrases after 3,4,5 drinks? This kind of thinking really helps me understand what's going on in my head and stay focused on my true intentions-sobriety.
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