l33t5p1d3r

I am a alcoholic, every day round about 8pm, (after work) I will start drinking not decent stuff either usually like 7.5% cider. Back when I was younger I was what people would call a player, basically a different lass back at mine every week. I've lost all confidence now, my life consists of work, come home, eat then drink, rinse and repeat. In between that I do nothing else. Days off are worse as I consider starting to drink earlier.

Mountainmanbob

welcome

I think that you will like it here

Mountainman

nicole100

Welcome to SR! Glad you are here! Sounds like you're ready to make some positive changes

least

You've come to a great place for support. It is possible to stop drinking and enjoy a sober life but it takes some effort. It's worth it!

sobercatholic

Glad you found your way here. It does look like you're open to some changes. Keep posting and asking, there's a way out of the rut.

Anna

Welcome, I know that addiction robs us of everything, including our souls. But, know for sure that you can find your way and we are here to support you.

Dee74

welcome l33t5p1d3r

I was in a similar cycle for years - I found coming here and posting regularly, and using the support here, really helped me change my life.

I hope we can help you change yours as well

KateL

Welcome xxx

Impurrfect

Welcome to SR!!

Hugs and prayers,

Amy

l33t5p1d3r

Thanks everyone for the welcome messages. I've sat today thinking about reasons as to why I started drinking so much, was it because my mother cheated on my father when I was younger, is it because I lost the one girlfriend that I did actually love over something so stupid, or is it because I have worked for decent places HMRC, Royal Mail, Nissan and now I work in a hell hole mcdonalds. All in all i think its a mix of the whole lot. I suppose I'm lucky with my current job me being a alcoholic goes somewhat unknown about. I just feel like I am living in some messed up dream and don't appreciate the things I do have.

Dee74

I don't actually think we need to know why we started in order to stop....in fact I think those kinds of questions are probably best tackled with a little sobriety and a clearer head

Have you got any kind of a plan to help you stay sober?

D

l33t5p1d3r

I have no plan at all. I would not really know where to start. I have tried going sober, lasted 6 days just before christmas last year. I did however find it really hard to get any sleep.

erics

You have already started. I could put down the drink, but couldn't keep it down without support from others, in the form of AA.

Hevyn

It's so good to meet you - I'm glad you've reached out for a better life for yourself. SR gave me the courage to quit - you can do it too.

worried6666

Welcome! This is my first day here as well!

Dee74

Joining a support thread is a good start..
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...rt-5-a-12.html

read around the forums too..post as much as you like - you'll get a lot of ideas

LittleRhody

Funny...I just posted about progression...from bars and ladies to home alone and hammered...yup...that was me

sobercatholic

Don't worry now about why you started, like Dee74 said. Focus on stopping, and staying stopped, which is difficult to do on your own. You can use the help of others, find local AA meetings, and keep participating here on SR in between them.

The "why's" of the drinking may become apparent with a few months or so of sobriety and the working of the Steps, especially the first five.