The Holidays: I was not bad but not good either
The Holidays: I was not bad but not good either
In reality I probably picked the worst time to decided to stop drinking. Right before the holidays. The constant parties and celebrations. It was just too much So when Christmas came and New Years I didn't get wasted but I also didn't not drink. My accomplishment of having a few drinks and then stoping when I knew anymore would lead to being drunk did make me feel good. But it also made me feel sad. Sad that I didnt just say no. I was worried about explaining myself to others. I didn't want it to be a thing. And in reality it was only a thing to me. So I chose the easy way out. So for me personally I am glad the holidays are over. The temptation and constant reasons and excuses to party are over. Now I can really re-focus on quitng all together so that hopefully next holiday season I can just say no and it not be a thing to me anymore.
Stay close to SR. Look at some form of face-to-face support. And good luck.
Hi Sara! I know what you mean about not wanting alcohol to be a thing. That kept me off from quitting for a long time because I wanted the path of least resistance. It may make sense to not tackling quitting it through the holidays.
But for me, though, waiting for external circumstances to be perfectly aligned to stop was just me putting off the serious work of accepting that I was an alcoholic and getting at the reasons why I drank even though I knew I couldnt drink safely. So i waited for that family party to pass, that wedding to be over, all those birthdays and holidays to be done to quit and kept drinking. Even though I knew I had a problem, accepting that it could get serious and dangerous and could eff up my life never seemed to give me the urgency to quit RIGHT NOW.
It's a new year, and it's always going to be a new day tomorrow. Dig deep and do the best you can.
hugs!
But for me, though, waiting for external circumstances to be perfectly aligned to stop was just me putting off the serious work of accepting that I was an alcoholic and getting at the reasons why I drank even though I knew I couldnt drink safely. So i waited for that family party to pass, that wedding to be over, all those birthdays and holidays to be done to quit and kept drinking. Even though I knew I had a problem, accepting that it could get serious and dangerous and could eff up my life never seemed to give me the urgency to quit RIGHT NOW.
It's a new year, and it's always going to be a new day tomorrow. Dig deep and do the best you can.
hugs!
Don't beat yourself up. Be glad you didn't overdo it and be strong in your resolve not to drink at all in the New Year.
I had to stay away from all drinking situations for the first year. It should come as no suprize that if you go to a drinking party that there is a huge temptation to drink.
Recovery is all about making real change in our lives
Recovery is all about making real change in our lives
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