30 days!
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30 days!
This is my third time hitting 30 days in the past year, but both previous times it was with the intent to "do a 30," then be a moderate drinker. Unfortunately (or fortunately,) the combination of genetics and life experience render me being a moderate drinker an impossibility.
Deciding to stop drinking forever, while at times during the past 30 days, has been a bit sad, overall it has been so liberating. Knowing I'll not have to drink at social functions, monitoring every sip of wine to make sure that I'm not drinking too fast, rushing to open a bottle of wine as soon as I would get home from said social function to "reward" myself for my moderate consumption at the function. Knowing I wake up every morning feeling refreshed. Knowing where I've left things. Knowing if I fight with my husband, it's at least sober, if not for a good reason. ;-). I've also rediscovered my hobbies that I thought I didn't have time for anymore. Turns out I do have time for them when I'm not spending too much time with wine! Knitting turns out so much better when done sober--no dropped stitches or extra stitches. :-). And reading moves along so much faster when I don't have to re-read last night's chapter due to not remembering it.
I know there are challenges ahead and I know that sobriety takes vigilance. I'm not in AA,but I'm reading the Big Book and crafting my own program to follow the steps. SR is my outlet to connect with other alcoholics--I'm so grateful to this community and the support it provides.
Here's to another sober day!
Deciding to stop drinking forever, while at times during the past 30 days, has been a bit sad, overall it has been so liberating. Knowing I'll not have to drink at social functions, monitoring every sip of wine to make sure that I'm not drinking too fast, rushing to open a bottle of wine as soon as I would get home from said social function to "reward" myself for my moderate consumption at the function. Knowing I wake up every morning feeling refreshed. Knowing where I've left things. Knowing if I fight with my husband, it's at least sober, if not for a good reason. ;-). I've also rediscovered my hobbies that I thought I didn't have time for anymore. Turns out I do have time for them when I'm not spending too much time with wine! Knitting turns out so much better when done sober--no dropped stitches or extra stitches. :-). And reading moves along so much faster when I don't have to re-read last night's chapter due to not remembering it.
I know there are challenges ahead and I know that sobriety takes vigilance. I'm not in AA,but I'm reading the Big Book and crafting my own program to follow the steps. SR is my outlet to connect with other alcoholics--I'm so grateful to this community and the support it provides.
Here's to another sober day!
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Great job, Claire. I cannot tell you how much I relate to you talking about rushing home to drink as a reward for controlling your drinking at the social function. That was me too--exactly. I'd just tell myself, "wait until you get home." Again, congrats on your 30 days and on your realizations.
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Originally Posted by malcolmsloan 
Great job, Claire. I cannot tell you how much I relate to you talking about rushing home to drink as a reward for controlling your drinking at the social function. That was me too--exactly. I'd just tell myself, "wait until you get home." Again, congrats on your 30 days and on your realizations.
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