Lunalight

I'm not sure what to say--just that I want today to be my last hangover EVER!!! I have two little kids, and after they go to bed, I drink around a bottle and a half of white wine every single night to relax and have "me time." But I always have massive anxiety the next day and feel pretty much paralyzed--not wanting to do anything or go anywhere. The "me time" drinking royally screws up every single day. My body feels awful. This pattern has to change. I want a better life. I want to give myself and my family the gift of a sober, high functioning me. So, today I stop doing the one thing that keeps me from being me: alcohol. I HATE it. I will defeat this addiction, and I'm looking forward to coming here to read all your posts, to share my journey, to get encouragement/help, and to offer encouragement/help. I'm on a mission. Thank you for being here.

When 5:00 rolls around, I'll be here again, probably with less enthusiasm as the cravings kick in. ERRRRRR!!!!!!! Addiction is complete enslavement! So angry at it. I want freedom!!! I have to correct my thinking so that I don't rationalize drinking.

least

to SR! You've come to a great place for support.

LindaLou

Welcome Lunalight! There is a lot of hope and help here. Keep reading and posting, we are all here to help each other.

Mags1

Welcome Lunalight

Skye2

from me too Lunalight (love the name)

hayley86

Welcome Lunalight, SR is a great place for support. It's really helped with my recovery. Glad you have joined us.

QuickBen

Lunalight, everything you say resonates. Day 1 for me as well. Your conviction gives me fuel today, and I'll be around at 5 to hang in there with you.

jnut

I'm right there with you. I quit for about 9 months last year and am now back in it. Almost every day I say I'm going to stop. My chest hurts with anxiety. But if I did it once, I can do it again. I just need support and encouragement.

One book I used last time was seven weeks to sobriety. She writes about a vitamin regimen that worked for me. I also added GABA to the nighttime pills.

And here we go. Hugs to you.

misspond

Hi Lunalight. I too was a bottle and half every night kinda mum, so welcome aboard and let's all keep on making sure we stay away from trouble x

Lunalight

Thank you so much everyone! I started crying. It's so sad how many of us suffer. I totally want to just hug all of you!!! QuickBen and jnut--Let's do this and conquer day one!! I'm so pissed off!! Glad to be here.

Dee74

Welcome to the gang lunalight

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Suekie

Welcome. I could have written your post.. except that I don't wait for the kids to go to bed to start drinking. I am on day 5 and the cravings are tough, but I know that sobriety will be worth it and I know that my family is worth it. We can do this!

alphaomega

Welcome Luna ! You sound exactly like me....

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...night-lot.html

You can do this. We can help.

XO AO

apophylite

Come and join the sober train in the class of november thread, we're all in the same boat and a friendly bunch