Always trying
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Always trying
Am always saying that I'm going to stop drinking but it never actually happens. I'm tired of always lying to myself but I always fall back into temptation with drinking. I hate it
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it was only until a specialist told me the other day that its pointless sorting out my demons in my head because i'd be dead soon from drinking that it suddenly dawned on me that i had an issue. my (soon to be ex) wife has nagged and my kids have moaned but the harsh reality of life and death is a SOBERING thought
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Thank you all for the support, it's greatly appreciated. But I honestly don't have a plan. I'm just saying im going to stop. And I wanna do it for my son and boyfriend(my sons father). We've been threw soooo much all because of the way I can get when I drink and it's tearing our relationship apart and I don't want that. That's why I know I need to stop. But as soon as I get paid I forget it and go back into buying more alcohol. But this time I wanna mean it and when I actually get paid. I stay strong and waste my money on things for my family and myself. Not all in alcohol.
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Hi. Support is great however your the one that needs to get off the merry-go-round with action and that starts with not picking up the first drink/drug even if your azz falls off. Years ago when that was told to me I didn't like it and continued on my painful way of looking for a softer easier way which didn't work until I got completely honest about MY drinking, not the boss, wife, weather, football game and all the other BS reasons we drink. I needed to want to be sober more than I wanted to drink. With a lot of work most of the promises of sobriety have been delivered to me. BE WELL
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You are absolutely right! Right now I wanna be more sober than anything and I am right now but then something occurs and I always fall back. But I think by finding this website. It's given me an insight that I'm not alone.
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to some people it's semantics, but things like this make a huge difference for me...rather than saying I am going to stop, I had to say "I'm done drinking", so the stopping part was in the past, and I got busy living sober. Even the not pleasant physical withdrawal part WAS part of living sober. So it was all forward momentum.
It really changed how I think when I got more careful about my words.
to some people it's semantics, but things like this make a huge difference for me...rather than saying I am going to stop, I had to say "I'm done drinking", so the stopping part was in the past, and I got busy living sober. Even the not pleasant physical withdrawal part WAS part of living sober. So it was all forward momentum.
It really changed how I think when I got more careful about my words.
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